Category: The Shower Accident 11/14/25

Altered States, The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

This Time Of My Life

Candid Corvid Productions

I had pushed through hardships
Carrying too much tension that

Was supposed to find release and
Began to right before car accident

My asking for an intervention was
Seeking help from the stress load

Not requesting next level struggles
Which now concussion compounds!

But hey, hey what can I say – it’s not
Like I had things I still wanted to do

(Wait – I did!)

And true, true I was tired from youth but
I didn’t want vital energy taken from me!

(How rude!)

I’m still going forward because I endure
But I’m more frustrated now by burdens

Making it even harder to create income
Let alone walk with confidence in smile

And the worst part is that there
Seems to be no getting beyond it!

Altered States, The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

No More Losses

Candid Corvid Productions

I can’t afford effects of the ride by
Taking drugs, drinks, or medication

That would cause any imbalance in
How I manage emotional currents

Because I am still captaining my ship
With people dependent upon strength

If I break down during financial hardships
The wreckage would become unavoidable

So therefore I do not have the ‘luxury’ of
Being someone who has ‘medical needs’

Altered States, The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

Off The Table

Candid Corvid Productions

“The PA told me that basic concussions easily take  4-6 weeks for recovery, but can take much longer if more severe – especially if compounding prior brain injury.

Looks like I am in the latter category, as school and extra pursuits are no longer an option at present.”

Altered States, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

Making A Simple Chart

Candid Corvid Productions

“I am on my 4th rough draft now because it’s all about placement of identification symbols – which identifying symbols (letters, shapes, icons, and associations) has been the main issue of my prior brain injury – now combined with blocked interpretive cognition from the concussion, as well as slight tremoring when trying to access fine to large motor skills.

I can literally feel my brain quivering from the normally minor strain of just trying to draw line measures straight, and then penning the symbols in proper spaces tries to for some reason bounce me around in tiny spacing.

Not sure how much I should be pushing to achieve progress, but how else can I regain anything?!”

Altered States, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

The Struggle

Candid Corvid Productions

“Regarding school by itself, I am trying to catch up with 70% completed by the 10th to gain an ‘Incomplete’ on both classes, which would allow me to gain an extension.

But my cognitive decoding of instructions, tasks, and then applications has slowed down to a third of what I had with prior brain injury.

I do not know if I can accomplush any of this seemingly simple sequential step-taking.

Just working on one assignment – granted, at 2:30am now in the morning – is straining my concussion.

But during the day, I am dealing with navigating phone calls, appointments, and searching for more survival resources.

And, I need help to decode and identify what my software applications class is asking functionally – which has been delayed all quarter even before the shower accident.

Yes, this is why I come here…

To have some belief that I am still capable.”

A Woman's Plight, The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

Sabotaged

Candid Corvid Productions

The general plan I had was that
I’d return to work in December

Having completed first stages of
Retraining adding to foundations

I accessed every limited resource
Using momentum’s gain to launch

Got smacked back down – literally
Now nearly 2 1/2 more years of loss

Comedy, Songs, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

“Not For Me (Brains In A Jar)” (Song 1st Capture)

Candid Corvid Productions

By Athena Stairs, November 28, 2025

Brains in a jar
Brains in the jar

I don’t wanna just be a brain in the jar

You might think it’s fancy
I would disagree

I would like to have more of my body

Brains in a jar
Brains in a jar

No matter how smart you are you’ll only get so far

Brains in a jar
Brains in a jar
Brains in a jar

Is not for me

—

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A Woman's Plight, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

In Time

Candid Corvid Productions

I can not seem to get back into that room
The one where fat is a reality nourishing

Where the brain is no longer quivering
Because knows marrow is replenishing

It’s a state of mind shift where settling
Into moments relaxed and surrounding

Where no emergencies bombard-invade
Where nothing wastes by playing games

Why is it hard to hard-stop insecurities
Driving me to push against the injuries?

There is time here gathering in offering
Allowing me to final-run finish studies

Yet the concussion clamps to prevent
A determination that refuses to relent

Why is it so important that I be stopped
From the simplest-task meagerest want?

Why am I being thoroughly interfered with
Beating me down enforcing toward lament?

Just leave me alone I need not atone
There’s no self reflection to gain here

Having already done the work my soul
Knows what it burns in desire to learn

—

(Title of multiple meanings)

Altered States, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

Self Recipe For Post Concussion Healing

Candid Corvid Productions

Craniosacral opening of spine, neck, and head light programming – Day1-2 post concussion

Enforced personal therapy trigger points all over head, neck, shoulders, back, and spine  over several hours trying to unlock compression, free brain from suffocation, and reduce high-intensity inflammation pain – Day 1 evening

Osteopathic Manipulation doctor gentle realignment cuing – Day 4 post concussion

Meanwhile, daily gentle excercises at gym to reconnect joints, muscles, and spine stability

Light Neurofeedback to help brain firing restabilize and reclaim prior gains – Day 7

Frontal hematoma and swelling first major release, causing brain cavity internal adjustments with injury severe exposure pain in sudden, periodic major shifting that I do not think anyone should have to be consciously experiencung while it is happening! – Day 9

(***DO NOT TRY THIS ON YIUR OWN AT HOME – OMG LOL!***)

A Woman's Plight, Altered States, The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

As Far As I Can Go

Candid Corvid Productions

The paramedics, except one, did not want to take her seriously.

And right when they arrived at the hospital’s exchanging, her being felt that she was not being transferred into safe keeping.

Immediately, the intake male nurse disregarded the pain and difficultties that she was having.

He made her further hurt herself by refusing to help her reattempt on her own to get into the wheelchair in his disregard’s treating her inhumanely.

Until she refused to try anymore until they brought someone who had any decency.

An older woman arrived, and for no provocation they’d also brought security.

The older woman stepped in front of her and to the right – and then the patient could grip and position herself where they wanted her to be.

The older woman hummed softly as she pushed her to a room where she could lay down again to manage the pain and imbalanced fluid exchange.

A brief blessing of kind compassion that help her reorient and keep trying to self stabilize.

It was a room reserved for mental patients, with cameras and a lockable closing door, where she could hear the nursing staff loudly joking at the ER station and one later said after she pressed the help button – “As if there isn’t someone down the way who is actually dying!”

At that point, she got help to call her eldest, because they didn’t seem to care or believe that she was dealing with brain trauma.

And while she was waiting, she finally began recording how loud and irreverent they were all being generally, irregardless of the fact people were there, hurt and dying.

They must’ve seen and heard her on the cameras, etc., because suddenly the noise got quieter.

And once her eldest arrived, they became more respectful and her eldest helped advocate for another scan against the doctor’s resistance to ensure that the sudden onset of symptoms did not include further risk from hemoraging.

‘Please take me to a different hospital if needed in the future,’ she requested to her eldest at the end.

Nothing like being confused and terrified with people making it worse by refusing to help as gaslighting.”

A Woman's Plight, Alex (An Ideal), The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

Dear Alex,

Candid Corvid Productions

“I don’t know how to recover from this accident, except to go slower while experiencing more neural twitching – and to keep doing what I have been doing.

But the resources are even thinner now, and all I can do is keep trying to show up, even with further diminished capacity.

Yeah…

My kids and I have had to have the talk.

‘If I end up in a home because my system crashes, don’t give up on me – please make sure  that I am getting the right therapies for recovery.

And if I am ever in a coma, don’t give up on me.

I am in here, trying to reroute the wiring.'”

Altered States, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

Slip-N-Slide

Candid Corvid Productions

“I have been trying to figure out why my several, strong attempts to stop my flipping fall head first into the shower wall that Friday night failed and, instead, resulted in increasing momentum each time gripping moist hands hit the wall.

Usually, fiberglass-like plastic will have a dry squeek traction that one can engage with once out of the direct water’s flow – even with damp hands.

But, instead, a sequence of expounded upon slippery compounding effects resulted, assuring my impacting doom.

Then, yesterday, a friend reminded me that the cleanser used in hotel bathrooms is a spray that they wipe over the surfaces and never have time to rinse off.

I remember this being true from my own past experiences of when I briefly tried working in different hotels, but did not take the jobs because it was a thematic that management expects cleaners to cut corners for quick room turnovers.

So layers of this spray accumulate, and with no traction provided on the tub floor or bars on the wall for maintaining stability, the situation is a ticking time bomb scenario for an accident to happen.

I also noticed after being moved to a room with bars in the bathroom after the accident that those shower walls were also flexible.

So, great…

Flexible walls saved my life by providing some bounce to my head and shoulder impacts – instead of cracking with force into a hard surface – but slickery walls without bars was a set up to cause someone damage in the first place.

And I just happened to get the ‘luck of the draw’ that evening.”