“No bleeding, yet my own discovery that inflammation also serves to cushion injury – so that when fluids suddenly drain, abrupt changes in presssure in and around the brain can cause various system disregulations, includimg more pain.”
Category: The Shower Accident 11/14/25
Oh, That’s Funnn
“Standing up and feeling nausea as my legs turn purple and weight floods my solar plexus.
Help!
I think I’m going into shock.
Lying back down to try and let waves passover me…
This sucks!
Greeaat
“My face is breaking out with impact blotches.
Internal bruising filtering its way to the surface?
I guess this is a good sign – meaning that the dense forehead trauma is trying to break up and alleviate internal pressure.
But its effects look like a type of subtle liver splotching swelling on my face.
Come on, Crone!
Give me a fu**ing break!
Dear Alex,
“I don’t know how to recover from this accident, except to go slower while experiencing more neural twitching – and to keep doing what I have been doing.
But the resources are even thinner now, and all I can do is keep trying to show up, even with further diminished capacity.
Yeah…
My kids and I have had to have the talk.
‘If I end up in a home because my system crashes, don’t give up on me – please make sure that I am getting the right therapies for recovery.
And if I am ever in a coma, don’t give up on me.
I am in here, trying to reroute the wiring.'”
Slip-N-Slide
“I have been trying to figure out why my several, strong attempts to stop my flipping fall head first into the shower wall that Friday night failed and, instead, resulted in increasing momentum each time gripping moist hands hit the wall.
Usually, fiberglass-like plastic will have a dry squeek traction that one can engage with once out of the direct water’s flow – even with damp hands.
But, instead, a sequence of expounded upon slippery compounding effects resulted, assuring my impacting doom.
Then, yesterday, a friend reminded me that the cleanser used in hotel bathrooms is a spray that they wipe over the surfaces and never have time to rinse off.
I remember this being true from my own past experiences of when I briefly tried working in different hotels, but did not take the jobs because it was a thematic that management expects cleaners to cut corners for quick room turnovers.
So layers of this spray accumulate, and with no traction provided on the tub floor or bars on the wall for maintaining stability, the situation is a ticking time bomb scenario for an accident to happen.
I also noticed after being moved to a room with bars in the bathroom after the accident that those shower walls were also flexible.
So, great…
Flexible walls saved my life by providing some bounce to my head and shoulder impacts – instead of cracking with force into a hard surface – but slickery walls without bars was a set up to cause someone damage in the first place.
And I just happened to get the ‘luck of the draw’ that evening.”
More MRIs
“Fresh damage from the shower accident.”
On Some Level
“I must know that I am good enough – even though I do not feel that I am good enough.
It is harsh to keep having what few externals that I had felt proud of exhibiting being taken away.”
Neural Healing
Right Now
“Brain Matters”
Thematics
She saw a sign saying”Bernard Malamud, ‘A New Life,’ and recognized that a new life was what she was indeed heading toward.
But she didn’t want to read the book because she was tired of so much messaging pounding upon her from every angle to get her to let it have its influence.
The title itself enough reinforced the truth of what she was wrestling with – for certainly, there was no going back to what she’d had or was before.”
(No Stopping The Sea – Hammock, The Sleepover Series Volume I))
Hysterics
“It’s never going to get better – is it?!
It’s always going to hurt.
I’ll just get hurt again.
And I’ll always be screaming inside when any movement I do is trying to tear me apart – over and over, again!”
(Roots – Klur)
“Reality”
She was reinjured and caught within a next level pain trap attempting to break down her ability to reclaim independent functioning.
Why was she being interfered with?
Why was she being pounded upon?
This was no way to garner her submission!
They Could’ve Just Asked Me
“The fall’s effects could be seen as an extra layer of deterent toward continuing with school.
But I was already looking at this regarding winter and spring, considering other priorities.”
Carefully Winding
“I’ve been taking my time in order to track my safety’s condition.
Eyes are beginning to twitch and pain is returning – time to spread my wings!”
Unquaivering Quivering
“Ummm…yeah…
Hard to keep stability, thus hard to feel stabile – but I’m doin’ my best.
Pretty sure the new head injury is contributing.”
Bad-A**
“There are many reasons that I walk slowly with dense purpose…”
Puffy Eyes
“Ah, yes…
Another episode in the soap opera, ‘Days Of Our Lives…’
‘Tell me, doctor – is she going to live?'”
(Leave It – YES)
Layers
“Of injuries, what can be said?”
Warmth
“The sun is out for a moment, basking my left shoulder, neck, and face with its healing rays – penetrating to wounds with its forgiveness.”
On The Road Again
“At least I have a chance to make it home – if I can stay ahead of the pain.
Not sure about school this week, though.”
Honesty
“When I was in the E.R. in pain and frightened, I just told the universe my reason for livimg was to see you again.
That’s when I felt all of those healing hands – which strangely seemed unrelated and felt like a coincidence in timing.”
Momentary Reprieve
“I beat back upon the pain last night to early morning hours from so many angles, and ot finally backed off so I could sleep around 4 or 5am.
The head impact compression distributed into flanged and twisted head and neck bone attachments down into right shoulder deep imbedment, as well as brain swelling inflammation was hard to counteract without ice or medication.
OMG – everything was swollen and not happy!”
Dear Friend,
My love for you softens me
But the pain contort-bends
The Core Of Pain
Is full of molten screaming
No mortal may survive in it
Proving therefore of divinity
I Think That
“I just cannot handle additional levels of pain to the load that I’ve already been carrying..”
Injury
“My mind keeps saying that I’m dying…”
