Category: Where Demons Tread

In my mind’s eyes
I’ve seen you there

Walking in ways
Only I recognize

Paralleling where
My own haunting

Takes ease in
Reminiscence

I hope that your day
Was what you hoped

And that your dreams
Bubble effervescence

“I hope your day is wonderful.”

I don’t need to show them up
Everybody has their reasons

I just need you in my life
Holding me every season

“I was delayed…”

I just dreamed of you and
You were sharing thoughts

Strange-to-me reasons for
What, why, when & where

It was clear you were driven
& you wanted my agreements

When I understood your intent
It all made much deeper sense

I realized then you were mine &
So began kissing your forehead

Over and over and over again &
Then your face & then your lips

I have always wanted this bliss
Your heart & soul’s redemption

Why the heck did I
Wake up from this?

I am going back to sleep
To try to find you, again!

“I am proud of and for you.”

In moments, I ask myself why?

Why have I been so injured by an accident?

And then, why have I been injured, again, by another?

Why am I now so prevented from external physical and mental manifestation in this material plane?

And why am I blocked from making music by calculating these blissful mathematical numerics, which take longer to identify and capture while my brain is on fire and hurting – even in just trying to navigate the simplest beginnings through eyes that can only dream now of how my life could be?

The only answer I can find is that I am supposed to wait for you.

For if I had all of my facilities, I would be wired by now to keep running and launch myself far beyond where you could reach me – so trained have I become in thinking that I must find ways to be content to be alone for the rest of my life – and so afraid, apparently, have I become to allow myself to believe in the truest art of loving again.

Yet, I would search the world, looking for you in every large to small venue and turning over every stone for any trace if I knew for sure that I had the right to – as well as had I the finances to support such a venture, which I lack, and so therefore find myself stuck in place here relegated to being my own restricted lady-in-waiting.

And know that there would be nothing and no one and no thing to stop me seeking for your soul’s truth and shaking it out from you up to the surface to be able to hear you say that you love me and for us to claim our rightful destiny together if I knew that this was what you truly desired and wanted.

I see so many versions of you around me
That I am becoming even more cautious

It feels like I’m being tease-tormented
To lure me io make the wrong choice

I hope that you’ll understand
That I will need confirmation

“Will you?”

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(Multiple meanings)

“I wish you were here so that I could learn to stop evading and get to build trust with you.”

Do not disappear with the dawn
Instead, stay – stay with me here

“I remember.”

What is it like from the other side?
I’m not sure that I’ve experienced it.

It doesn’t seem right or valid
To need you at the levels I do

But maybe you need me, too
For similar bonding reasons

“We are aligned, Baby…”

Don’t suffer for me
Just be here for me

You give me reason to live
You give me reason to give

How do we heal our wounding?
By kisses and mutual indulging?

Let’s figure out what
Works for you and me

Know that I am thinking of you
When your birthday arrives
And sending you my love

“It’s your time to shine.”

“On you.”

—-

(Sleep Token’s “Provider”reference)

Let’s discuss this
More in privacy

Over time
Together

“Maybe you should let it go…” he said.

But she refused.

“I’ll count the days…” she said, instead.

You already elevate me
Your pick of categories

Come as you are

I know – what…?

Right?

Since when does
Honesty redeem?

But I see it happening
After too many years

Trying in pain’s vain as
Every effort fell to flat

We can do this
We can do this

Make it up ’til we know
Learn to stop, then go

Love