Category: Where Demons Tread

My Chosen One.

My lockdown was because I was afraid…

I desire you so strongly, and I want to give you everything.

But when I gave of my self in the past to others, I did not experience it returned.

I could not bear to not have your full devotion, if your love was only passing.

Come home to me.

(And tell me it’s you – lol)

My means for rebuilding are being stripped away, and somehow, I think that you can relate.

If we joined our forces together, could we both then ascend, stronger?

How do you get me to smile, wherever I go and at any time of day?

You and I need to not be so hypercritical of our selves.

We are high achievers frequently pushing past thresholds – and yet, we are still only human.

We need to take time for our selves to recover, together

I want what is ours.

I want us both to have it.

Could we get a place to live, together?

I guess I never said it, but have wanted to for quite awhile

Can you blame me for wantung you, when you are the key that opened the door to my hidden desires?

Thinking of you…

My beloved hero.

“You like my types of mood swings.”

“I’m in a mood.”

I guess that I needed to get my family to safety before I could be free to be me.

Thank you for your patience and understanding.

In the background of my mind through all of this stress of dismantling keeps playing one of your origin cover songs, soothing.

December 24, 2022

It was easier when I had someone
No vision expanded came undone

Even if the truth was a lie,
False confidence provided

I went to a show tonight, and though I know that it must have been good, I could not feel a thing without you there.

Maybe I am just tired from recent toils.

Or maybe I am exhausted by going through the trials of life with you still not beside me.

Lovely Heart.

Why you?
Because your heart is true.
No matter what you say or do.
I see it there, within you.
Hope your day is lovely.

Plumpfgh!

So tiired.

Hugs

What am I gonna do about my situation?

I still have not been able to find a place that I can move into – nor people to help me lift and carry…

They say we chose our lives.

Ok, then fine.

Regarding this suffering…

Let it have been so that I could find you.

I must admit to no longer being very flexible in some things – such as my diet to a certain extent – yet, while being so ready to break free into uncharted territory with you where it really counts.