Category: Where Demons Tread

My sweet star navigator.

I don’t need to delve into all of the negative thinking that I am sliding into just from sheer exhaustive “drudgery…”

Suffice it to say, I feel “discouraged.”

My Darling.

I need to pull more minor miracles out of my hat…

My Love.

When I think of you coming back for me, my soul begins squirming in my body.

I do not remember having experienced my soul’s having it’s own shape before!

it isn’t your fault, my love, that I remain cautious and guarded.

I have become settled deep into my armor from more recent events which has shifted my mind into tracking and strategizing survival mode – regardless of how I am feeling.

My limbs are locked into predetermined allowances, and my eyes, lips, and teeth are conscripted along with voice to stay modulated..

But all I want to do is speak words of love from my heart and soul to you while we embrace and become one.

Yet, I do not know what is needed to disarm me.

I’ve attached to you…

I hope this is what you have wanted.

We are winding parallel spirals…

Your earth into air

And my air onto earth

May we meet somewhere, soon

In the middle

It isn’t age

Or society

Nor circumstances

Or propriety

But simply a question of:

Do you want to?

You were worthy when

I first kissed your hand

And you’re worthy now

As storms cross the land

I want to come with you.

Help me be there for you?

I am frightened, too…

But we should not let fear prevail.

Are coming to the surface now, my love…

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(Sleep Token reference)

I am so f-ing tired!

My One.

I made it.

Miss you.

Though the miles between us are weary, let my love launch and carry your legion to sail wherever it is that you need to be – and come back ’round to me soon, and safely.

“‘Take me back to Eden…'”

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(Sleep Token reference)

I am amazed at what I accomplished.

Sweet dreams.

My cherished one.

Do you like being adored?

I do not know what I can do to bring you closer to me.

But then, it isn’t up to me – is it?

I get an hour or so’s rest before I must continue…

Hugs.

Sometimes I get mad…

Because you have not been here in the flesh, helping me.

But I try to not take it personally.

I feel so tired…

I imagine you do, too.

I look forward to being with you.

Goodnight, Love.

And let me in.

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(Sleep Token reference)

Please come be with me.

Remember I said we do not need perfection?

Grow with me.

Our gains will come with time.

Please don’t let any more seconds keep us from being with each other.

I miss you.

I need you.

I want to learn with you how to overcome our fears while we grow stronger together.

I found a place to go to.

I am blessed with a new way to start.

My Darling.