There is no test
Just show up for real for me.
Again and again.
Always.
There is no test
Just show up for real for me.
Again and again.
Always.
There is no right move that I can make any more.
Why would you want this?
Look what has happened to me from lack of our open bridging.
And if you thought and needed to expect me to be brave – I can no longer act on these pretenses.
Not when any move on my part could now be a wrong one.
The situation’s aspects have effectively hog-tied me.
The only way to preserve my sanctity and true care for you in this position is to avoid everything.
I think it likely that my predicament was caused inadvertently.
But I am reliant upon you to correct and fix this canting skew now brewing between us.
I protect myself because I have no filters.
You matter so much to me that I need to be careful to still hold my own center when I am around you.
I want and need you, but I don’t know you.
I need and want to know you better.
Please make this easier on me?
This isn’t easy for me.
You could make it easier.
Sometimes, I delay my speaking to ensure your safe passage.
I look forward to when we can have time together.
Sweet dreams.
It tears me up inside that we can’t share our love in person with each other.
I need you to be part of my reality, every day, so that we may experience and share love and grow with each other.
You are where I get to play, and I am grateful for this – and for so much more with you.
Thank you.
Sweet Heart
I can’t explain it, but you make sense to me.
Your Shelter.
I’m too cold and too hot here, on my own.
Every time you turn
Away from me hurts
And I’m left confused
Warring with passions
I need you to
Risk, find out
I think that you see me, understand me in ways that no one else ever has or ever could.
You bring out what’s been hidden and has dwelled in secrecy, afraid to be redeemed.
I think that I do the same for you.
Something about us just slides into spaces for each other that we need filled the most.
And this both terrifies and exhilarates us.
Terrifies – a sense causing severe contraction.
Exhilarates – a sense causing such rapid expansion.
We have such potential for a wonderful life together, my love.
We draw, shift, and surge each other’s tides.
How do we come together and meet in the middle so that we may both benefit by and guide our passions, rather than being tossed about by their storms?
Please hold me close.
When you stay in the shadows, how can I see or know you better?
Let go of needing to be perfect for me.
We both need to work on this, together.
Come here.
How is it that you awaken my hunger on levels even I have never dared to imagine?
You know you feed me what I need.
I don’t have my “sh**” together
I am emulating designs for you
Surges passionately for yours
Nothing I wouldn’t do for you
It rises like an eagle’s cries
Pierce atmospheric layers
Claiming sovereignty
Over all of creation
Just to be
With you
Love
How do you know?
(Multiple meanings)
At times, here and there, I think that I have seen you.
And I really like you.
I like how you care.
And how you stare.
That heat within you.
Nothing compares.
I haven’t written because I have been hurting.
I have wanted you to come be with me.
But why would you choose me – out of anyone else in the world?
I am used to losing.
Even though it doesn’t suit me.
And I want you, need you, desire you – yet feel powerless to claim you on my own.
I love you so much, Baby.
Happy Valentine’s Day.
Baby…
Love you.
Do you like cats and dogs?
‘Cause we’ve got a steady rain goin’ on over here.
Sleep well.
Hugs.