She worried there were others
That matched up with the code.
Sales Pitching
Marriage Dynamics
(The Cave – Forester)
Impressions
You have my attention now
Even though I downplay it
You are in my bloodstrean
In backgrounds of dreams
You have pierced the barrier
I wonder what you’ll do next
The world awaits breathless
Misunderstanding intentions
Transference
“I don’t understand how people can play lightly with this process – let alone think that it is ok to do so.”
Off-Script
You show up
Offering hope
Go beyond your best
To overcome valiantly
Then get blamed for any
Communicating honestly
As if your efforts are reason
Why the relationship failed
The Third Wall
“Is cracking everywhere.”
We Know
“I don’t have to say it.”
The Flood
Having water-logged into
Near-drowning swimming
Swept up by sensations
Only diverted by equal or
Greater intensity experiences
Transforming energy capably
(Say That You Will – Sleep Token)
Pair-Bonding
“Takes on new dimensions.”
Dear Friend,
I would like to go
Toe to toe with you
Word for word and
Action for action
Over your life’s betrayals
And maybe mine, as well
Should we yell and rail
At each other, together?
Blaming the other one
For their sex’s crimes?
And then once expended
And the hits atoned taken
Fall into each other’s arms
Sobbing, divinely entwined?
Cautionary
In the end, all of his talk
Of logic meant nothing!
And she learned that
Deep down she could
Likely never trust again
As evidenced repeatedly
From those days forward
When it came to promises
Made by men who claimed
To value connection with her
Master & Servant
He had this belief that
Emotions were bad
And so avoided until
Actions capitalized
(Disintegration – The Cure)
Disintegration
She slipped and scoffed at him
That burning hell-hole of angst
Pouring lavish resentment
Into stewed remains of love
Something she’d never have done
No matter what anyone did to her
But the sick, thick, twisted irony
Kept choking – corrupting senses
As witnessed generation patterns
Acid-pouring on purity’s memory
So she lashed out in a short burst
Because he had untrained her dog
Who was too big to be jumping up
And now had adopted anarchy in
The name of another’s propagation
Passive-aggressively unraveling all
And she clipped that it was his fault
The thick skull had cracked his tooth
Ashamed that she had degenerated
Unable to restrain responding rage
Max
I’d gone on a quest
To find a male spirit
I could bond with
To replace my ex
And found him
In a crossbreed
His feathery, lanky hair
Sifted between fingers
Cascading beautifully
In strength reassuring
Warmth in his kind eyes
Laughed adventurously
I’d forgotten there was
A pair of hazel worthy
I showed him that there
Was more to life’s living
He helped me feel that
I was worth everything
Yet I knew that if I
Loved him as I felt
I might seal that door
To my own partnering
And so we grew distant
Until he chased a sheep
And I had to
Rehome him
We don’t speak often
Of how our hearts ache
And of the other one
Who passed as kitten
Dear Friend,
I know that we’ve both
Yearned for deliverance
Yet do not be afraid
Once we’ve acquired
If things do not go
According to vision
What has driven us to find it
Is merely a new door opening
Where life begins again
In next level complexity
I think we could manage it
If we rise to the challenges
Keeping each other in mind
Holding our bond as sacred
Bonding With Trees
Catch Me If I Fall
In a high-wire balance act
How can one be assisted?
Separate Hemispheres
You are far away
While I am near &
I cannot pull together
Conflicting aspects of
Divinity and humanity
Except when inscribing
My love, will you help me
Merge two into one sphere?
Object Of Desire
“He might be somebody that could
Smoothly dismount bicycles for me.”
(Vs. Performung in horsemanship games as in olden times)
Dear Friend,
It makes me frustrated to not
Know what to say around you
And nervous
To be reliant
I say this because
You mightn’t know
Due to how
Well I mask
Athena
“I suppose if one
Has to be human,
Now’s a good time
– Relatively, that is.”
Dear Friend,
“What would we speak of in reality?”
A Voice Replied
“I think they’re telling a story…”
(Regarding my feelings)
Dear Friend,
You cannot sleep?
Now I can’t either
Letting feelings for you surface
Gave them license to take over!
Give & Take
Cupping can actually
Create abrassions in
The form of temporary
Red rashes like rosacea
Especially on the face that
Can say, “You what mate?”
And in a case with injuries
Muscle release destabilizes
Exposure
Afraid of stinging
Burns of rejection
Vulnerability is brief
In allowed exposures
Cupping
Attempting to smooth out
And reconnect micro-fascia
Cheetah-lets & Momma
“E’s”
“Wings”
Soft, But Tight
Favorite sheets
(Emergence – Sleep Token, Instrumental)
The Older Woman
They say she has more wisdom
She is more mature than before
But I have had these qualities all along
The dfference now is I am a bit tougher
Negation
Maybe I was beautiful and worthy
And that’s why he didn’t trust me!
Kin
Soon they would be arriving and
There’d be much happy yapping
(Spark – Forester)
Today
“I purge entropic madness!”
(House cleaning)
Simplicity
It seems important
To find compatibility
Rather than to think
To change someone
Missing Pieces
Revealed over time
Desire’s fulfillment
Becomes defined by
A life’s accumulated
Gaps in unmet need’s
Missing puzzle pieces
Being found by exchange
In supportive partnership
Again bestowing upon us
Eden’s blessing as we kiss
Dear Friend,
“They speak of age, yet it is more about life experiences, interpretaions, and vision; emotional, spiritual, and psychological intelligence; what drives and motivates – as well as what we can give and provide for each other which dictates compatibility.
I find it fascinating how similar our trials and growth in understanding have been – to the point of how this could have come to be becomes difficult to logically comprehend, for the details in lifes’ design and how we arrived here have been vastly different.”
Youth
A young father slow-trot bouncing his 5-6 year-old daughter on his shoulders in play fun.
(Awww – but cringing, “Ouch!”)
(Joy & Pain – Rob Base & DJ E-Z)
RAAAAUGH!!!
“My Life Is In SHAMMM-BLLLES!”
(Slightly hysteric up-tones with hands upturned in side-to-side shaking open claw motion)
(Separate Lives – The Alan Parson’s Project)
One Step Forward
“Three dragging me back.”
Feeeeehck
“What’s my focus today?
Yet another emergency?
I keep getting disrupted.”
