“The Divine Comedy” is such a great album that I found back in 1995. I was excited to discover that she was (and is) a true, talented artist beyond just her modeling abilities – and then, she began making movies!
Hail To A Sun King
A man who scales mountains, and keeps going – proud, is surely a king hidden under a shroud.
For if thus proclaimed, our once hunger would slake – while evil residing would tremble and quake.
Though women would pine if he wed and sing woe, whatever he touches grows well as blooms know.
And men call him brother – once neighbor, now friend: when Triumph is finished, begins once again.
“Magnetism”
“Intersection”
(I’m Not Good Enough)
(Back To School Again – 1982)
“Tiny Treasures”
Zoom in…
“Lady Bug”
(Best Is Yet To Come)
How Do I?
I never feel cught up with myself.
What tail am I chasing?
Opposite Extremes
Bachelorette find of a leftover restaurant side salad becomes a bonus forage-find treat for the ravenous.
Having been pushed to the back of the fridge to where its water matrix became full of semi-solid ice particles yields every attempt at quickly munch-consuming results as aching teeth from cold and chills cascading down body.
Overcompensated for now by too-hot ceramic mug placed onto lap – burning – while fork rolls off sproingy noodles as spears too large, hanging fronds of parmesian-covered chicken.
Overall, a “sensational” experience!
Ebbs And Flows
Our hours are all over the map.
I still have trouble trying to not judge this.
Vestigial remnants of a prior life where fitting in meant you matched everyone else’s schedules still call to me.
Why do I keep feeling that pull – as if I am missing out on something?
Chasing this feeling never got me anywhere.
I find my life in its own right timing
Our Wolf’s Kindness
As a treat before breakfast today (usually, it is after), I gave our girls chewy, rolled up rawhide replacement treats to keep them busy while I continued getting ready for the day.
While in the bathroom with the door open, I could hear our puppy suddenly high-pitch whining, so I closed the door to protect my ears and nerves, commenting to myself that she had really eaten her treat quickly!
Once I returned to the front room, however, I discovered that she had accidentally flipped her treat outside of her crate. Our wolf was near it, lying down, and had left it there for me to return to our pup, instead if taking advantage and eating it!
I was so surprised and elated at this generosity, I mobbed our wolf with happy praise, pats, hugs, and a kiss on the side of her face – then gave her an extra biscuit.
Self-Criticism
Anxiety and fear of the unknown resulted yesterday in hind brain’s critic negative judgement trying to warn and nail me to a cross for buying food to eat while on the road after starving from efforts expended in working with clients, and later gluten-free graham crackers to meet my brain’s need for balanced sugar reboit after giving so much of my energy to others.
It is hard to address needs to take care of myself while confronting feelings of financial insecurity.
May 1st – Recovery Day
Four days in a row of client therapies after another neck adjustment has produced muscle spasm lockdown and fighting over which vertebrae will sublux while I tryto prevent this by outmaneuvering last night’s tension-compression migraine.
Clearly, I need to prioritize shifting from shoulder to neck physical therapy, but at last my shoulder is progressing (woot!), so I must just hold my ground and attain a neutral balance involving, unfirtunately, NOT doing the dishes in this moment.
Jumping Spiders Are So Cool!
They are so intelligent, we are lucky they are so tiny (nervous laughter). Last I heard, they are reported to be as intelligent as dogs, but if you watch them long enough, their behavior suggests that they may be even smarter.
In sci-fi extrapolations, what woukd it be like to work with and ride one? Calculate speed, jumping distance capabiliry, and their directional shift variability, and these guys fold time and space in quicker than a heart’s beat!
(I Ran Scene – La La Land)
Battened Hatches
Selective viewing is all she allowed
While struggling to keep shipbound –
Responsive only to waves’ swelling,
Ensuring her craft endured weather.
The Love I Want
No scammers’ demands to reveal my body after sending me fakes, unseemly and tawdry.
No ghost’s carress, nor fake “I do” – no lies in boredom creating hell I’m put through.
No switching places with specialists designed to manipulate and apply pressure’s vise.
No “careless whispers” that “we’re meant to be” – I just want the truth in which I can believe.
“Spirit”
Greater Purpose
Invisible yoke harnessed,
The weight pulled forward
Ensures Earth continues to
Turn in the correct direction
Despite those who conspire
To break her fragile balance.
(Firedancer)
“Heaven’s Gate”
Zoom in…
Reciprocation
Being able to give back and pay forward helps me feel reimpowered because it is again within my hands to help others.
Beacon
Some are born to prove
By their postive example
So that forgotten values
Can rebirth redemption.
(A Little Bit Of Love)
Self Regulation
It is easy to feel panic when leaving any form of dependency, yet harder when food and other insecurities reinforce because the future is yet unseen, and the past still too close to be “forgotten.”
(Love My Way)
“I Thought You Were There”
(Rise)
Power
I am beginning to feel my own return to me.
(Daylight)
Slowly
It takes me late into evening to unwind from the day.
(Unstoppable)
Simulation
I had woken early in the morning, acknowledging I had not dreamed of him in the night and resolute to not dwell on it.
However, after I fell asleep again, I dreamed I had in my hands his previous university attendance portfolio which showed various classes he had taken and he had accumulated an even greater amount of student loan debt than I have.
He had chosen my same gamble to invest in a future with the goal that someday more than enough money would be earned to comfortably pay the loans back.
Luck and good fortune had favored him, therefore, it could still favor me.
When I dream of him, I am given messages of acceptance and loving inclusion which restore my pride’s status – and I realize just how much circumstances harmed me by this positive contrast to their negativity.
I wake up from these dreams of him with a new option on how I would like to view and feel about everything, knowing that a cherished and beloved peer thinks highly of me – even if only in my imagination.
“Zion”
Zoom in…
“Da Bomb”
I shake with excited energy, barely able to believe this wondrous reality that I now live in such a good community where other business professionals recognize and value honest integrity, while sharing skills and building positively dynamic and flexible.relationships.
“Capital Gains”
As an positive person, I capitalize on whatever positive gains I can glean from circumstances that affect me, within and outside of my control.
How I Am
Just when I gain any recovery, I immediately leap forward again as if I am a participant of a race and cannot stand to get behind expanding from constant learning.
As I clear up leftovers from the past, not only am I prepping to delve into more English training, but also new therapy modalities to add to my clinical abilities.
(Waking Up)
(As The Ice Melts…)
“Sun Drop”
“Prepping The Garden”
“Solar Flare”
“Blooming Beginnings”
(I Just Wanna Shine)
Tina! (The Best)
(Breakfast At Tiffany’s, Cat Scene)
A Good Life
Settling down, taking in the more level scenery, working to calm the restlessness inside while still striving to achieve. Being grateful for and mindful of the large to little things
HaHaHa! – Today’s Tea Leaf Wisdom
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