March
No more I want you’s
Or cameo glimmerings
Every holiday now passed
Except Easter’s Christening
Spring bulbs and budding plants
Are to be consolation destination
Whether I can keep them or not
Resolves for good or desolation
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(Title of multiple meanings)
Trying To Rest & Recover
“I think to myself, how did things not hurt before the accident?
Back when tissues maintained internal structure – instead of crossing over boundaries into pulling on discs, joints, nerves, and vessels – just trying to sleep on ny side?”
A Last Attempt
Today, she would struggle one last time to salvage her situation – which had just now been flipped into its back as the world was tilted and sent it toward the maws yawnung doom – but the gaps were now widening and slipping along too quickly to where she could no longer grasp at any edges.
“Cloud Candy…”
Candy that clouds eat?
Candy that is like a cloud?
“My Cloud Candy”
An endearment…
What Nerve!
“The nerve pain is now traveling, defining itself in ways beyond extremes of before.
This is a 6-day work week for me.
From nothing post concussion and needing to be minimal still post accident – to beyond max, immediately.
It’s expected of me if I am to survive what’s happen8ng.
I am not sure how long I can hold before I implode.”
Odd Woman Out
“I hear them laughing.
They are happy.
They have every reason to be happy.
I am glad for them that they are happy.
I helped them get to where they are now happy.
But I am not happy.”
“Running” Joke
“Living out of bags, again…”
Dearest Friend,
I have not told you about the extremes that my situation has been flipped and exploded into, capsizing my every good and productive, mutually-beneficial-to-everyone strategies while having the tide turned suddenly hard against me as I am rapidly being swept toward a whirlpool without a life boat…
(You Make Me – Dj J’ess)
Love Bugs
(Resonate – John Summit)
“Let Me Say It!”
Luna & Shadow
I Want To
Turn back the page once again
Give up the game and let me in
My arms belong around you
—
(Sleep Token lyrics)
Safe Haven
Lift
Oh lift me out
Of my own skin
Of all my doubt
—
(Sleep Token lyrics)
Movie Undine: The Hug
(You & Me – Cameron Whitcomb)
Dearest,
Yes, of course I still love you.
It’s just hard to need you so much while on my own, going through more trials.
I think of you always.
Every day.
Frequently.
No matter what I am doing.
Wanting to be with you.
My Own DreamScape
“In the dream, something settled in me, and I was at last happy…
At peace.
I had found the real strip of city-towns along the coastal edge that before I could not place in pre-fashioned dreams’ ‘reality.’
That perfect combination of favorite aspects from different locations that I have had prior experienced in my life – became all proportionately blended into one.
For some reason, this had been very important to me for sime time to achieve.
Perhaps it was because these different snippet sensations each provided of certain sense of place particular to my needs that when combined ended up feeling like ‘home.’
My imagination had crafted the perfect idealism at last…
In effect, breaking the code.”
(Dare – Gorillaz, Radio Edit)
Pattern Recognition
Commencing…
How Dare You!
(World In My Eyes – Depeche Mode)
“Driven” To Distraction
“On the phone, trying to work things out and form a new plan – got into a car that looked the same as mine, and realized that it wasn’t.”
(Lmao at myself…and the owners for not locking their car!)
MRI’s
“With hard-jumping back into work again and activating head-slam-injured muscles, new and strong tingling across shoulders and down through and onto tops of hands, as well as deep spinal torque-compression, indicate necessity.”
(Times Like These – Foo Fighters, Acoustic Version)
On My Way
“To a new adventure!”
Trying To Just
Restabilize
I’m Confused
“OMG, I have hair.”
(It’s a good thing)
That First Healthy Relationship
(Love Train – The O’Jays)
Leveling Out
“There is no ‘ill will’ going on here…just people trying to figure out how best to survive and then thrive.”
(Is There Anybody Out There? – Pink Floyd)
If Never Enough
Then stop trying?
Before I Go
“I will re-seed the lawn areas and cleanup.”
UnderCut
It seemed that her any advance was.
Dearest Friend,
I have to move.
And I am worried.
I Am
In pain in levels
And bone weary
Loving
(Love Is An Ocean – The Midnight)
Reframing
“An innovatively-productive way to ensure continued survival – though not always easy.”
“To Believe In The Good Of Man”
End lyrics to the band Yes song “Loved By The Sun,” from the movie Legend.
(Digital Dreams – The Midnight)
Dual Pathwinding
“While preparing for disaster, also preparing for in case winds somehow shift in my favor.”
(Giving Up Air – The Temper Trap)
Promises To Keep
She had promised her half of the rent – and would follow through, even if it meant that she had no money to save herself, now.
And she would show up to court, doing all that she could to contain the damage and prevent its further spreading to others.
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