“‘My Pearl'”
Healing In Safety
Drumming Sync
Running From & To Love
Duck Lovers
(I Love the Way You Love · RebornBeat)
(Winter’s Dream – Camp Crush)
(Dust Layers – Mimicking Birds)
(Shadows – Camp Crush)
(Outskirts – Sam Hunt)
INFJ Lone Wolf
Trade-Offs
She had needed consistency of order and quiet.
However, she had needed reuniting with her once estranged family even more.
A Punitive System
She had already been making certain decisions – so why did influences have to hard shove closed doors from those directions she was already leaving?
(Infinite Baths – Sleep Token)
Self Recipe For Post Concussion Healing
Craniosacral opening of spine, neck, and head light programming – Day1-2 post concussion
Enforced personal therapy trigger points all over head, neck, shoulders, back, and spine over several hours trying to unlock compression, free brain from suffocation, and reduce high-intensity inflammation pain – Day 1 evening
Osteopathic Manipulation doctor gentle realignment cuing – Day 4 post concussion
Meanwhile, daily gentle excercises at gym to reconnect joints, muscles, and spine stability
Light Neurofeedback to help brain firing restabilize and reclaim prior gains – Day 7
Frontal hematoma and swelling first major release, causing brain cavity internal adjustments with injury severe exposure pain in sudden, periodic major shifting that I do not think anyone should have to be consciously experiencung while it is happening! – Day 9
(***DO NOT TRY THIS ON YIUR OWN AT HOME – OMG LOL!***)
“Hard-Knocks” Knowledge Gain
“Feeling the inside components of my skull shifting into better position as the fluid pressure released was excruciatingly painful and terrifying – especially when I sat up briefly and could taste the saline taint of lymphatic puss and blood from behind my throat passage as it drained.”
Redefining Purpose
Connected Frequencies
Protection’s Acceptance
Loving In Controlled Chaos
A True Friend (From Modern Love Series)
(DENTELLE – TRex_Beatmaker)
Murmuration Concept
Home
Already Lost And Won – Faller Music
Internal Wounding
Like sticky black taffy tar clogging where life’s vital blood should circulate freely, infection from others’ betrayals against love’s purity still encumbered her.
(Way down We Go · KALEO)
Cracked Hull
As a crew member, she tried to help stop the huge military ship’s keeling, but there were flaws in its design that she could not counter, and the whole of it succumbed to the water’s drag sucking it down into the depths with several crew members still inside of it.
She’d been lucky enough to be near the surface and able to push off from the submerging bow as the ship sank slowly down backward, and as she swam to shore and pulled herself up out of the water, she saw that throngs of people had gathered as if to a Sunday picnic along the banks as they watched the ship disappearing.
She couldn’t calm the panicked distress of being unable to help save the other crew members still trapped within the ship’s confines, and as she prayed for their somehow escaping, her internal horror starkley contrasted against the ignorantly gay commentary from the onlookers around her.
—
(In a dream)
Threshold Of Light
(Portrait On The Wall – FoldingSky)
Broken Lines
They hadn’t cared that their matriarch’s elegant clothes and personal belongings were going to be left behind for the angry daughter-in-law to defile and desecrate in her latent rage.
They didn’t care that the fridge’s unfinished holiday helpings if left to rot would cause damage over time in the now abandoned house and give the daughter-in-law reason to sue and place blame.
And they certainly didn’t care about the matriarch’s beloved seasonal china laid out twice yearly in sacred tradition to welcome her family.
No…
Her granddaughter-in-law saw the truth in all of it and made sure that the family helped her secure that no trace nor censure of their matriarch could be used to tarnish her memory.
They barely helped, and most reluctantly.
Oh, yes…
And then, once they realized that the china had value and they could sell it back to the angry daughter-in-law for cash value – they demanded that the granddaughter-in-law’s family turn it over to them, accusing her of interfering and “attempted stealing.”
Cut Ties
She had found out recently the that original marriage had been actively sabotaged by her ex’s family due to spite and jeolousy once their beloved matriarch passed.
But this did not exonerate him.
In fact, it emphasized the lack of mutual devotion that she had repeatedly encountered throughout her entire life.
Emotions
“Of love…I miss them the most.”
(Annie Lennox with ‘Why’ on Countdown in 1992)
(Woman In Chains – Tears For Fears)
(Habibi Metal – Rudy Ayoob)
Strength In Unity
Sharing fears and insecurities
Revealing failures’ weakness
So that it may become clear
What keeps tripping our feet
Why we keep holdimg back from
Reaching for our greater abilities
Acknowledging triumphs’ strengths
Despite inner conflicts’ resistances
Allows us to be each others’ witness
Shining light on truths by recognizing
Better who we are and desire to become
So that we may achieve heights together
Supporting when needed
Loving as we are healing
How It Could Be
A picture of a carefree woman &
Her man with an arm around her
She is looking left toward him
& they are smiling very happy
(Take Your Time – AURENZA)
Just One Dance?
Dear Friend,
I couldn’t tell you everything I needed
In that lightning-bolt moment waiting
I’m sorry I didn’t respond immediately
When everything mattered suddenly
I needed time with you to unpack
& for us to get to know each other
So that we could share confidentially
In safety’s security-assured building
I miss you terribly and hope that
You’ll give us a real chance soon
(Natural Disaster – Jeremy Zucker)
Contract-ion
He was an elemental force that
She wanted to wholly embrace
But she was frozen in place
Looking for solid grounding
She needed commitment
On every imaginable level
To keep her family nourished
So she could share his passion
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(Title of multiple meanings)
“Dark Signs”
(Waiting On A Friend – The Rolling Stones)
Repost from December 2021
Handling Fire
Denied Temptation
A younger man arrived, entwining his fingers with hers, wrapping his arm around her waist in that familiar way of lovers – and behaving as if he would give her the moon and stars if she’d consent to being his.
And while this unfamiliarity but desired regard felt lovely, she paid attention to the fact that an older street woman witch kissed him, yet said she would grant the couple freedom this one night.
But the dreamer didn’t want to give or take anything for temporary.
So she spoke up and told the man about the performance troup behind the bar that just then finished playing, and how she used to play drums like they did.
And then she stepped aside to take some night photos of the moon in interesting position to a neatly designed building.
With every gesture of her true self emergung, the spell he and the witch tried to lure her by became weaker and weaker.
And though she felt cold and empty as she further disengaged, she knew that she desired the real thing from another.
Better to love someone true from afar than sell herself short to someone under cover.
The One Thing
“I have always wanted, I see others getting to have.
Despite my grief and continued losses, I will always support others getting to have it.”
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