“For as much as we try to reach for the light, we are suffering – more.”
Category: A Woman’s Plight
Surfacing
She cried in fear and terror, grieving and lamenting, aware of how close she’d come to death as she praised her body for collaborating.
In That Moment
“”My name’s Athena,” and she extended her trembling hand to at last take his own in greeting.”
Pushed
“As seems typical in my life now, emergency survival mode has consumed all and more of what time I could manage to focus.
My retraining starts soon, and I’ll be lucky if I can study up on it the night before.”
(I Miss You – Island Sun, Ambient Version)
“Losing While Gaining” (Spoken Word)
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(Keep Breathing – Lynnic)
In Dreams
Snuggles & Sleeping
Mind Set (Spoken Word)
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Dear Alex,
“I am being corralled into ‘disability’ status.”
Movie Pick Still To See: Pride & Prejudice & Zombies
Disparity
“Reaching for love while fighting off demons.”
(Inspiration – Eigenart)
Lock-Stepped
I can’t write another song
Because there are no words
To express how you affect my
Interdimensional multiplications
Normalcy
“Being part of what I love, again.
For a moment, so darn happy…”
(Dire, Dire Docks – Super Mario 64 Soundtrack)
Why Do I Feel
“More fragile, more sensitive, more tenuously introverted this time around?
I still extend and interact, but inside I’m quivering.”
(I Don’t Dance – Lee Brice)
I Don’t Know Why
“Being here on this campus in this certain department with this group of people makes me ecstatically inwardly happy – as if I’ve always belonged here.”
(Lebaron – Russian Circles)
Hell Bound
The Black kept gripping, even as she kept slipping out of its clutches.
Realizing she must have made a wrong turn somewhere, she sensed that she had traveled deeper into the catacombs.
But there was a dim light ahead where people were crowded and surging, and the sweetest, most intoxicatingly soul-ravaging music lured her to witness a dark knight and his entourage performing in impassioned glory.
From that moment, she was smitten by a force Hell could never even dream to compete for.
Peeps
“I get to hang with some of my favorite types of people, tomorrow!”
My Spot
“I didn’t realize that the place I usually visit some nights is where the parking spaces had opened up for me!”
Jagged Drop
“What is that drag in the gut that hits just as the festival ends and you caught up with some loved ones who are partnered – but then you again go your separate ways?”
Dear Alex,
“It astonishes me to be wrecked as I am, and to be ambling about, attempting to reform myself around these torn and broken inner seams.
Tomorrow, I begin school again, and later this week, the first of my healing retraining.
Noble…
Aged…
Steeped in Wisdom…
I scoff at this crown being donned upon me – for I so long to be myself again, and to be your lover.”
Glitches In The System
It wasn’t that she didn’t know or remember where she was going and what she had to do.
It was when she would come to a turn or a door in the corridors that her mind would get caught in a jag of review.
(Climbing – Steve Tibbets)
The King’s Blessing
There had been too many tragedies
As a result of decisions made past
Too many losses experienced
When no one can ever go back
The weight of the world had always
Been his burden of responsibility
Generations of corrupt collusions
Cast doubt upon worth of fealty
He had not supported their actions
Yet still carried the onus of ancestry
And Fate can become unkind when
Forces of Chaos manipulate destiny
But somewhere beneath crushed pride
Remained an embered memory of love
It burned too much to touch it so
He’d gripped it with leather glove
Once released if it were possible
He’d have fallen to beg upon knees
As remembered their flights together when
Sacred winds had whispered through trees
And wished with all of his heart that
She could again love wild and free
(Man I Need – Vandelux)
I Want This
“I want this…this incredible love that I feel inside to have a place shared with another in his heart, and for him to receive this from me in my heart, as well.”
Sudden Realization
“Watching video clips of strong, mythical women – and then realizing, ‘so am I.'”
(As I Am – Piece Wise)
America’s Freedom
Grim Whatevers
“I don’t have many of the few supports that I used to rely upon – whether caffeine for brain waking and then later calming, or rest in sleep.”
Hard Stop
“But I can’t move in any of these ways, anymore.”
Because She Could
Tbe little girl toddled at speed across the green grass under fluffy-leaved trees, arms high foward waving for balance in the air as she swayed too and fro and her mother guided and worried in tender flutterings.
Captain’s Wary
More used to the high seas’ variances’ larger continuums, she felt mistrustful letting river rapids and currents just carry her forward.
Reluctance
“This could be good?” her pragmatism queried.
Overstim
“The house begins clattering with footsteps, voices, banging diors, food smells, and soon to be sequences of barking dogs which must be quieted as the tractors gear up at 7:30am and rumblings penetrate through body and housing – thinking they’ve a right to transgress early.”
No Way Around It
She was affected by other beings’ rhythms.
Crisped Cinder
“My love, would you forgive me just not wanting to do any of this, again?
I still want to know your desires, dreams, and aspirations – I just need rest and to no longer be so heavily worry-burdened.”
Sleep Deprivation
“I am now entering into this cycle again, feeling the adrenals cycle up for the next go around of too much, too fast, all of the time as the dogs won’t let me sleep, and everyone else’s day is about to begin.
Too many dogs peeing and pooping and barking and jostling.
Too many cats needin meowing and messing, needing tending and rehoming.
Too many dead-end conclusions rattling, and deadlines resisting their amend.”
Lament
Oh that we could have met
When I had more to offer…
Questions In The Dark
How could she let him help her
Why would he even want to?
Her heart had been betrayed
And her body was fractured
Time Of Need
“This is mine…
But my spirit rocks unconsoled, knowing tbat even still, things could get worse.
Traction seems a thing of fantasy now, and daydreams.”
Cracks In The Shell
“Lovely forms are reclaimed of broken pottery, made whole again by golden filagree.
Heal me with your love, so that I may be reborn.”
In-Ferno
“Where am I?”she screamed while he tried to grab onto and hold her as she fought him off in desperation to reclaim herself, not knowing what was needed.
“Can you see me through all of this rage and pain? Would you love me still if I can never be myself, again?”
Ah, At Last
“Some tears…I’ve been too tightly wound, lately.”
(Hanging On – Bob Moses, CRi Remix)
Throes Of Poverty
“Stumbling over bills’ downhill slides while attempting to innovate.”
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