God, it hurt.
It hurt so bad that she could have hurt him again through more misunderstanding.
But, once again, she had no control.
These decisions were not up to her to make.
Category: A Woman’s Plight
Loving Care
She had spent the rest of the afternoon carefully vacuuming and dusting, in case he had wanted to play the piano.
Exit
Stage left
“Don’t Speak Truth”
“Yeah, don’t ‘pull the thorn out of the lion’s paw’ and then cover it with kisses…”
(Such B.S.)
Shoring Up
“Ok, girl…get ready for next levels of descension…”
Carrying On
(Crying and curling up into a ball inside)
—
(Title of multiple meanings)
Rendered Powerless
If she had somehow hurt him, there seemed to be nothing that she could do to make it better.
Her loving, best intentions didn’t seem to matter.
Her imperfect attempts to bridge with him just crumbled and fell short.
I Need To
Touch the flame.
Sun Set
As she took on the news that they would be leaving her behind to abandon ship, she watched the sea birds circling far out over the dappling, rainbow-lit waves and listened for signs of guidance in the wind.
“Spun Around” (Song Repost W/ Lyrics)
By Athena Stairs, December 5, 2025
I’ve been holdin’ on here
Comin’ tends to another year
Please don’t fault me
I’m feelin’ lonely
Every time I turn around
Fears and worries make a sound
When love’s intangible
It’s uncomfortable
And if my feet should leave the ground
Don’t hesitate to turn me ’round
‘Cause I’m fallin’ for you hard
Can we find a better way
There’s only so much I can say
When I’m loving from the heart
Where did you go?
And where do you roam?
I long to be with you
To start life over brand new
Why are we apart
What good is this for our heart?
And you
I don’t know what to say
‘Cause you
Take my breath away
Oh
When all I’ve ever known
Has chilled me to the bone
Oh
And I would choose a better way
Can you see me?
Come this day
Oh
Ah
Never in my life before
Have I wanted something more
And you
Oh
Are my dream come true
Don’t you see me?
Can’t you say
We can find a better way?
Oh
Every time I turn around
My feet keep slipping off the ground
Oh
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(Fall – Chroma Glow & T-120)
A Bird In The Hand
Needs a nest
Water and food
And snuggling love
Polite Introductions
“Just come up to me slowly and gently, and introduce yourself to me, my love – so that I do not startle and automatically run.”
Mutual Deference
She was cautious to not place any judgements on possible prior ‘inexperience’ for either of them when sensing what she knew of him seemed to indicate the likelihood of his having so much respect for her that this possibly caused uncertainty about how he could best proceed.
I’m Not Going To Chase You
“I’ve sent you love songs and explained in great detail, despite my pain’s aggravation.
But neither will I deny you.”
(Flicking her tail in his direction as she saunters smoothly away into the forest)
In Her Defense
She had not realized until now that her prior freeze shut down had been her primal instinct’s self defensive checking to make sure that he was serious.
Of course, he had thought (possibly quite rightly from his point of view) that his mere sudden presence should have been enough evidence.
But he had not calculated into his equation the true depths that ran between them.
The Natural Order
If a male large cat senses a matching female’s need and wants to be with her, he shows up.
And of course, she resists at first because she needs to assess his seriousness.
She needs to know that she can trust him to stick around before she shows external acceptance.
But humans seem to need to complicate everything.
Prized Possession
She understood and cherished him in ways others didn’t and couldn’t.
And further, her love would nourish him.
—
(Title of multiple meanings)
What’s Missing In “Modern Lovers”
They often lack capability of the deeper exchange.
Anemia
She needed prime meat.
—
(Of course, there are multiple meanings!)
Lover’s Tiff
He kept thinking that he should stay away until she felt better.
But she wasn’t going to feel better until he was reunited with her.
A Match Made In Heaven
I don’t know who came up with the idea that an incubus and succubus were not made for each other.
But that person was either very stupid, or destructively conniving.
—
(Title of multiple meanings)
Dearest,
Do you not understand?
Your emotions feed me
That is why silence harms me
I need your love’s wild energy
Your range of passion
From calming to loud
Where once shamed
Let’s welcome proud
Confidence
“I think mine is depleated. Maybe adrenal-related. It needs mending “
I Want You
I don’t want to be
A bitter, stilted spinster
I want to love you with vigor
“Tears Into Rain”
From The Beginning,
She could not remember
What she had said to him
Only that she had extended
What she thought obviously
To the point and deserved
By his art and heard heart
But he had seen right through
The mask she’d tried to present
In her efforts to support him
While not giving herself away
No,
She wasn’t doing ok.
(Be The One – Dua Lipa)
Insider Scoop For My Man
What I Want From My Man
Love’s Relegation
Every man that she had cared for in this life had turned love’s promise into a tease, a taunt, and a game of withdrawal’s withholding – resulting in her vulnerability’s eventual abandonment.
Whether close in person or half of a world away, they worshipped the chasm of distance to keep from expressing and experiencing her love’s healing, magical, and reinvigorating art.
Oh, they said they wanted it – sure….
But this was just to keep her giving them good attention while they left her hanging.
The worst part of this was that her heart, mind, and soul had been openly honest – but then were starved and whipped into a frenzy while she kept holding space for them, extending kindness and patience.
Eventually, she had to learn to protect herself from further injury, since not one would actually step up to claim her love and care for her, in return.
She’d had to close each door and exert her own resistance through distance.
But living without love had never been a good reason for any season in her belief system.
It created the feeling of living in barren wastelands.
Movie Xanadu: Suddenly
Fresh Wounds
It tore her up to have to have limits with him, when all she wanted was to be able to give him everything.
End Of InTolerance
“No more at a distance relationships.”
(Door slam)
Asked Why I Am Angry
“Because a ghost is often cold comfort, and lack of reality makes a person think that they are out of their head – as well as the energy required to sustain faith in such situations drains reserves without replenishment’s biofeedback!”
(But it’s more like extreme and vexed frustration.)
(The Apparition – Sleep Token)
Ever, My Love, It’s Always Been You
She had been searching…
Gods, for too many centuries long – how she’d been searching!
But she had only caught brief glimpses of him while Milenia called her home ever since the eruption between their worlds had cast them far apart from each other.
They had made a promise that binds before time’s dilation had shifted as it often does to new delineations.
Yet, they had encountered barriers causing such anguished despair as they fought their way to rediscover and at last keep it.
And then, she had found a method – a prospective way to bring him forward into their sharing a new reality.
First, she synced with a host body – though she had had to struggle along its growing years to remember why she had chosen to be born into its reality after conjoining.
She did recall that the eyes are windows to the soul, and so she would search for him in other men’s eyes – though she could not remember why or what she was looking for.
She just remembered a feeling…
And she kept trying – but with no success.
But then, one day, she heard a voice that infiltrated her illusions and reawoke her essence.
And her core felt a recognition that she remembered that she had fought so hard to believe in.
Could it be that her most beloved had found his own way back to her?
And was there still time for their reunion and co-reawakening?
Clarity
She desired love’s emergence.
Missing Pieces
She knew the right one would fit.
She knew their union would heal.
Soul Connection
She was drawn to men who needed healing.
If only the exchange could be mutual.
Our Love’s Messages
My Darling,
I needed standin substitutes for awhile, and became dependent upon them to help me find ways to bridge my way back to you.
I needed premise while in absence of knowing, and while I miss their assurances, I would rather get to have the truth of you.
Reserves
Something definite that she no longer had.
—
(Multiple meanings)
Heaven’s Gate
Along the river where willows part
Lying on a blanket blessed by stars
He wrapped his body around hers
Sinking to depths embracing love
Her eyes spilling over tears of relief
Mirrored his request to never leave
A promise both gave in bonding
Their souls through mortal coils
—
(You & Me, My Love, as I passed from dreams into today’s reality)
My Captain
It did not seem possible that there’d be a hero to come help and save her.
Someone who’d value, want, and cherish her.
For so long, she’d been the one others needed to rely upon.
(If I Can’t Have You – Shawn Mendes)
The Time Arrives
She was in a grocery isle, looking at garbage bags and cleaning supplies – of all things – and saw hum coming from her left.
Sunglasses still on to mitigate the bright overhead lights, she angled her stance more toward him and hazedly watched him approach, expecting him to turn and walk the other way.
But he kept coming, slowly, and was watching her carefully but directly.
Every step brought his visage more clearly into view as her mind scanned for attributes that would confirm his identity correctly.
Then he stopped right there, right next to her, not looking away – just as she held herself there, though swaying a bit from not automatically bolting away, herself.
He was ready?
They were ready.
To be real….
To figure out how to explain and discuss everything.
They were ready to face fears, together, with trembling relief.
—-
(This morning’s last dream before waking)
Claiming Rights
“You might be a pain in the butt,” she asserted, “but you’re my pain in the butt.”
And then, she hugged him.
—
(Title of multiple meanings)
“She Loves Me”
He said out loud to no one in particular.
“She loves me…”
That He Could
Drive her this crazy must mean that she cared for and loved him deeply.
