“Targeting the core truths of her own heart.”
Category: A Woman’s Plight
I’m Just Not
“I’d like to say that I’m on top of things, but I just spilled half-n-half onto my favorite carpet, and I don’t want to put out ant traps tonight because I just want to let the evening end peacefully.
What really is ‘on top of things,’ anyway?
I think it’s time for me to change my interpretation and self expectations.”
Coming To Terms
She loved him.
Period.
Whatever that meant from here on forward, she would no longer fight it.
Flush
“”I was helped today in getting my car insurance turned back on so I can function, then told that I could pay it back when I am ‘flush.’
Flush…
How am I going to attain anything near that spectrum, again?”
I Am Reminded
“Of specifics in how I made it through past versions of rough patches.
I did not want a refresher – yet more advanced course in this.
‘No Sir…don’t like it.'”
(After All The Bars Are Closed – Thomas Rhett)
I Hate It
“Wearing the poverty cap.”
Tests Of Endurance
“Maybe it isn’t all a game, but…”
Maybe
“He got a ‘better’ offer…
He deserves ‘the best.'”
Laughter In The Dark
“I see younger couples carrying their toddlers for distance – and even a single mom with like a 6 year old as she carried a cumbersomly frontloaded baby carrier with a newborn in it.
My muscle synapsis scream as I phantom flex remembering how I, too, used to do such things.
And all I can think of while viewing these still-resourced wonders is, “Why aren’t you utilizing strollers and carts?”
Neurofeedback
“Well…apparently I had needed to cry a-lot, and its an indicator of love’s unrequited influence.”
Damage Control
“What is that again, exactly?:
(You’re In Love – Movie Howl’s Moving Castle)
Dear Friend,
“I was able to show you my rare phoenix, but mostly I have to scrabble for sustenance in one of my other forms – and there’s a lot of concern, worry, and even fear for my survival involved.”
Short-Stopped
“You were made for this,” giving barely a kiss, the brief visiting younger guy said.
And she realized she had to end it with him.
She was made for a bonding man.
I Am
“Liking these curls, though!”
For A Moment
“I can stand straight – because I fight hard every day to regain such brief moments.”
Getting Cozy
“Hello, Crone…
At least I beat you back for thirteen years.
Although it’s clear you haven’t fought fair.
What the fu** do you want from me?!
And those hype-rs applauding ” Ooh, make friends with your inner crone!” can just keep walkung past me.
There you go, now – just keep. On. Walkin’…”
You Know
“It’s kind of shitty having disability.
I already knew this from caring for others outside of it.
But gee, look – now I get to have the same prize!”
A Woman’s Reality
“I need to be provided for.
Not just want, now – but need.
Where’s pride and safety come in?”
Tired Thematics
Unrequieted love
Injuries twisting pain
Financial instability
More Financial Battles?
“No…just fecking no.”
Nope
“No school work today, and no rest tomorrow as bills and services cancel.
There is no easy way through.
No wonder I just want to stop and not try anymore.”
Out Of Gas
Literally.
(Together – SIDEPIECE)
Second Chances
She’d seen him walking toward her, and then later walking away.
Would he return – or was that his only advancement?
(Levitate – Sleep Token)
The Ripple Effect
“I must be losing weight because as I lean forward typing on my phone with arms resting on upper thighs, shadows cast from an overhead light show in extreme relief the myofascial damage done by the car accident to tissues on the inside of my upper arms and across my biceps.
I’ve got to try slide-cupping this, again”
This Life
“I have so that I may change.”
Walking Stick
“‘Cause this. is. fun. – and oh-so se-xy!”
Highs & Lows
“Oh, yes….
They like to tell me that I am perimenopausal.
But I know for a fact that my temperature fluxing disregulations are from my neck injury, for I can induce these quite easily, accidentally.”
Great Expectations
“I have flights of fantasy thinking that I could get to school early to catch up and be prepared adequately.
But then I remember no food is yet cooked for me to take with me, and earlier I heard the dogs hard-knock over something.
Another catastrophe waiting to greet as I foolishly think that I could be free to be?”
Enticement
It wasn’t fair
No it wasn’t
How had he known
She had hidden locks
It was her own fault
For looking over then
Her own fault for
Honestly wondering
Simple Tasks
“We expect to be able to take ability to do such things for granted.”
Twisting Motions
“Oh, that’s right…
I helped change a series of light bulbs requirimg over head twisting motions.”
Confession
“I did spend time tending my roses that the dogs had shredded…”
(Afterglow Dreams – Faller Music)
Like A Rip Cord
“I don’t know what I did, but my anterior shoulder tendon attachment is pulling hatd and very angry.”
Dreamer
She couldn’t help it when the visions came clear.
(Silent Fever – Faller Music)
Primed For Flight
Shivering from the forces warring within her, she turned instinctively to flee.
His hand shot out with lightning quickness, capturing her wrist gently but firmly.
“There’s no running from this,” his voice growled possessively, yet full of understanding.
“You and I…we both need to see this through.”
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(Title of multiple meanings)
Typical
Bitterness floods the gut and rage boils inside, churning a dragon’s ire.
She WAS Mad
Those had been her words, her life, and of her same spirit.
Now someone else was getting the credit.
In The Waiting Room
Is disengaging the same
As freezing dissociation?
My mind does not want to
Be going in this direction
Someday,
“I will let out a mighty scream of pain when my right hip joint at last repositions itself correctly.
But though it keeps indicating through a crazy spasming pain, this will likely not happen yet, today.”
Going To Extremes
“It’s a consistency now after mopping floors that the next day or so my muscle attachments spasm and twist, attempting to dislodge shoulder and hip joints from their hitches.”
Confusion
“Those were my words/my life…”
So Many Tasks
“To get out the door – OMGawd!”
But,
“I can’t afford Kleenex.”
