Love is love
Is love is love
But I need love
Inside my blood
The heat of hope
Pulsing with trust
Two bodies close
Becomes a must
Category: A Woman’s Plight
Repeat Cycles
“How did I get myself into another distance, unavailable relationship?
This status is nontenable.”
Understand Me
Why had she locked down again?
She hadn’t expected him, was caught by surprise.
Every day, she longed to see him again, thought about how she could do things different if she did see him again, tensed up to rally against her locking up.
But she knew that she might just freeze again – and she couldn’t bear to have him leave again.
No, no, no – not again, please.
“This time, just stay, walk toward me, and hold out your hand.
Knock on my door, or on my window.
Help me unthaw.
Help me bridge to our new land.”
She Was Too Shy
To send it directly to him.
(Never Enough – Turnstile)
“Never Enough” (Song)
By Athena Stairs, February 1, 2026 Early AM
Close enough to hear it
From the other side of doors
Close enough to almost smell
It coming from their pores
A hidden glance
A wayward chance
Two mistep’s
False proposals
A grand debate
Doors sealed to fate
And a world embroiled in upheaval
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(Contact me for permissions)
The Music Of Love
She just wanted to know.
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(Multiple meanings)
Precipice Of Tomorrow’s
The veranda strip of grass at the top of the hill sloping down to the huge maples where “Red Light/Green Light” used to be played, and later, Grandpa’s ashes were scattered in a ceremony that she was not invited to, the back entrance to her grandparent’s home entered through his piano practice room.
You Are The Only Partner
“Who cared for me enough to show up and do something about it – despite all of the obstacles.”
Oh, That’s Right…
“‘Severe’ exhaustion…”
Just In Time
“Doctor,” said the nurse, “she has fainted from exhaustion.”
She To He
And as their children came to visit their home safe at last, she reached out and grasped his hands as she looked up into his eyes and said, “Thank you for this. Thank you for your love and your trust.”
I’ll Be Here
“Nothing else matters,” he told her.
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(Metallica and Elderbrook references)
She To He
“Let’s both forget.”
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(Sleep Token reference)
She To He
“For how else can the air feel the earth’s passion?”
She To He
“You remind me of those fireworks – and I love it.”
Me To He
“Won’t you show me what it’s like to be loved by you? Let me feel it through and through.”
He To Me
My life has been like a cage to me
I will get in your way to protect you
From influences that threaten your peace
There’ll be no more harm this day onward
(Half Door Open – Nova Pulse Beats)
Leveling Up
They were so well matched that they were both capable of swimming in the shallows forever in person – unless one or both of them broke through the barriers.
Lady Blue
She had spent the day rallying and cleaning, putting things in place a bit better as she had wanted to.
In the evening, like every evening, she subtly kept an eye out for him, trying to not feel like a fool – because what guarantee was there that he would appear?
And there was the balance of timing and not looking at every single person, because frankly, to do so would be exhausting.
Home Base
She just wanted to hold him and have him hold her – and have them finally know and feel that their hearts were safe and home.
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(Title play)
Learning Music
“Sometimes, I take leaps.
I do not know how, and I can only trace them by recording by chance and then understanding a bit through later analysis.
I wish I had a system that I could build upon and understand, though.”
(Take Me With U – Prince)
It Hadn’t Mattered This Much Before
Apparently, though she had loved, she had not loved anyone to such depths that could uproot her past losses – which explained why she also felt more vulnerable now.
In This Case,
She had fallen in love with the man through the dragon.
And Then The Flood Came
She had found him, sang from back stage at the end of his set to lend support to him, they were able to kiss on cheeks then lips briefly – and then she was sent off on a wild goose chase away from him as he had to ready for departure and she had thought that she was joining him at a diner.
After a long bus ride that ended up dropping everyone else off at different venues except her and her guide, the two were finally let off at a park, and as they walked along a path, she asked to be connected with him by phone.
After her guide called him, she could hear him asking her guide questions about her, so she asked to speak with him directly.
Yet, his responses by phone with her once he was outside of his costume were filled with suspicious aloofness in his tones as he questioned the validity of her caring for him, stating how could he believe it – and what proofs could she provide of her affection?
She then opened up her heart to him and told him that she wanted to travel the circuit with him to get to know him and support him, that she couldn’t do distance relationships anymore because they were unhealthy for her, and that maybe she could work along the way to help with her travel expenses.
She didn’t have any money right now, but she was willing and open to innovating.
But he still resisted believing her because for too long he had survived by guarded indifference.
So she pleaded that he tell his other half how much she adored and loved him, and that even though she didn’t well know this side of him on the phone, she knew that she was certain that she also loved him, too.
She was crying as her voice kept getting softer, and she struggled to convey the depths of her feelings while sobbing gulps made it harder and harder for her to breathe as she tried to keep speaking.
When she at last finished, he said nothing.
“Hello, are you there..?
I love you…
Are you there..?”
Straining to hear any response from him, her emotions became so overpowering that she found herself waking from what revealed itself to be a dream, and heavy tears emerged in reality as she found herself still calling out quietly to him, “Are you there?”
Rapid Reframing
“I repeat myself when under stress to find the answers in a mess. The pieces fit where became blocked – keep turning ’til slide into socket. A light turns on as truth reveals healing begun as wounding seals.”
Even If,
“He deserves the attention.”
God, Knock It Off
“I am tired of being used as a tool for your righteousness.”
Tidal Pool
“Influences keep trying to pull, but I’m stuck on you like a fool who doesn’t know what’s good for them – except that I do.”
Illuminations
“Silence isn’t the problem…
I crave and need the connection.”
Worth Every Penny
“I tend to maximize benefits, even when there are no benefits, initially.
From this likely comes benefits.
Which is even more reason that I need a partner who will treat me right.”
Eclipse
Despair warred against the hope within her.
(Anytime – Brian McKnight)
Too Close Without Comfort
“Watching the older gentleman backing up and going forward in his hot rot medical chair while letting his little dog sniff bushes outside on the street, I recognized him from when we were living out of the hotel before the car accident.
Too close to similar scenario – but this time with no ability to work hard to pay those daily high rates – has me not wanting to talk too much about the hysteria clamoring inside of me.
I would much rather be conversing with my love about passion and its charms.”
End Of Line
“I am no longer going to read anonymous love messages.”
(Not Today – Kim Gordon)
My Job
“Holding the line and not adding gasoline to the fire.”
(Love Is Blue – Paul Mauriat, 1968)
Trust Fades
In the shivering cold.
Another Bitter Pill
Unfulfilled promises.
Wasted Potential
Time slips through fingers
Aching to carress and hold
Secure Vs. Other Attachment
Tit-For-Tat
“You’ve been driving me crazy,” he confessed to her with humor.
She got a sweet dimple in her cheek when she replied mischievously, “The least that I could do was to return the favor!”
Where Do I Stop?
It was like she kept re-living different versions if the same nightmares.
Estranged Times
She remembered looking back, how her ex-husband had contacted her parents, expecting to cast off his responsibility to her onto them once her capabilities had been used to exhaustion and she had been worn down into a frenzy.
She tried her best to not equate the situations.
So Shy
An affliction they both struggled with in person.
(Damn I Wish I Was Your Lover – Sophie B. Hawkins)
A “Simple” Suggestion
Once they’d broken through the ice and he felt assured of better footing, he allowed his confidence to come forward and cued her with a voice so low and husky, “Aren’t you going to come hug me now, my darling?”
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