Category: A Woman’s Plight
Youth’s Exploitation
“We are told that our value decreases as our age increases – but that is because ‘elders’ cannot be so easily manipulated.”
StarLight
“The pressures of the years rapidly increasing from the accident’s fallout have produced pronounced silver strands to either side of my cheek bones – which I always thought would be cool, but the Crone is definitely getting to drink her fill.”
(Sinking to Atlantis – KOREmickey & Kung Fu Kenny)
Dear Friend,
“Where is the room for courtship and romance?
Is it enough of a start to have spoken our shared truths at distance?
I wore a mask today to protect my fellow healer students.
But doing so overheated my brain and recycled whatever I was fighting off so now I feel feverish.
So if, for example, we were to meet this evening, my instincts would be to turn you away to protect you.
Or…
The only other option would be to invite you in where we would instantly (hopefully) succumb to sleep together – and I would likely infect you.
Are we allowed to just cross that line and fall into natural rhythms together?
Why do I feel like I’ve always known you – as though we are tethered?”
No “Go”
Activities & shows – but going back to bed.
Lone Wolf Empaths
Lift Me Up!
(I Run To You – MISSIO)
We Weren’t Ready
“But what makes us ready?
Surely – do not say that it’s more time!”
My Between Realms Ring
“It broke today after having been significantly snagged days ago.
Did it abdicate to save my digit from further harm?”
Was I Better?
As our projection mirroring reflection
But need for self mastery dominated?
I ask because I, too, reacted yet
We’ve been deceived by the ruse
Spiral Ecstacy
I dream of a time when
A man syncs with mine in
A type of parallel symmetry
(Ha Lo’ · Black Soil)
Outer Realms
Quivering
I’m shaking
Am I sick or
Nervousness
Compounds
In the waking?
—
(Content of multiple meanings)
Mortification
Hard-hitting anxiety
From extension that
Lacking reciprocation
Cascades in retraction
Bedazzled
Quiet – they say to keep quiet
For if request he will not come
The light cast bright reveals someone
As if they really knew what to look for
So many are waiting for that knock on their door
And my nerves keep aching fried and frazzled
Resolve
“I’m not sure how to feel better about past negatives – except to focus upon current positives.”
—
(Title of multiple meanings)
(God In You – Tinlicker)
Diversions
Retraining sessions
Me & The Void
Queen Of Athens
(Ever Know – HAEVN)
Saving Me
“It becomes ever further apparent that my creations here keep me from dissolving completely.”
Trials Of Fealty
She began to see that this was The Test:
Every man before had used up her best
And then rejected her as failed to match
Let alone surpass capabilities provided
So perhaps this is why she was stripped:
Because only the right man would prove
His ability to rule well by her side by
Helping her fight to regain her vitality
Of Milk & Honey
It was interesting…she had to now think abstractedly to retain any sanity, noting that when she felt herself more ready and welcome, the thorns sprouted thicker around her castle – as if the surrounding garden’s wild roses had become very fond of her, and as a result, were determined to let no man near her without him proving his worth by overcoming their obstacles.
She could only allow herself to muse and wonder at their tendency, recognizing their protection’s validity as lesser men fled the scene, for she had become too afflicted by melancholy to risk endulging entrapment’s grieving.
And the enchantment’s spell did not seem to care that she was starving as it maintained its strength by drawing too much energy from her body.
(TMBTE – Sleep Token)
Normalcy
“Is that like Vitamin C?
Can I buy it as a supplement?”
Trauma Bonded
“No matter what I do, I can’t seem to escape.”
—
(Title of multiple meanings)
Symptomatics
“Reactions to compounding lag in an injured system from having to repeatedly respond to new emergencies that push pressure loads beyond capacities into enforced quick adapting can lead to reactions and/or shut downs which present behaviors much like complex PTSD – either drastically slowing or suddenly forcefully expelling energy as a result of the system’s desperate attempts to create space for self regulation.”
Encouragement
“Even with continuing and multi-varied discouragements, I must cling to a moment ago’s realization that as I continue working new patterns over and over, my methods are beginning to adapt into streamlining.
Perhaps much of the issue exacerbating my injuries is constant disruption negatively reinforcing sensory overwhelm and overstimulation.”
Steps Back & Forward
“Although I may have just been exposed to COVID right in time to potentially sabotage attending my retraining, it is nice to note that my handwriting is beginning to smooth again at times – compared to right after and since the accident injuries disrupted motor skills coordination.”
Complications
“Upon complications, upon complications…
Nothing new, really – just another day in a choppy sea trying to keep our heads above water.”
(No Holding Back – HAEVN)
Dear Friend,
Of course I want you
I’ve always wanted you
I was just afraid to love you
Because it tugs on everything
You’re always on my mind and
Pulsing in rhythms of soul’s body
How do we get out of our own ways
And together, reach for The Divine?
(Don’t You Give Up On Me – Brandon Lake)
Groan
“Tomorrow’s going to be a long day due to even less sleep than usual.”
Nervous Beginnings
Will our inhibitions keep us stuck in a rut?
What right do they have to mess with us?
Is this what it means by leaping in faith?
But what if we’re frozen stiff at the gate?
How do we propel ourselves into momentum?
Does speaking in code assure of same intentions?
I know desire to kiss you coaxes temptation
But is your approval implied by arrival’s attestation?
If reached out my hand, would you offer yours, too?
If counted one to three, would we crash into
Each other, bonk heads, then laugh all jittery?
I’d like to be smooth, yet awkward is temporary
My Feelings
Winter Bones
Already bones are freezing
Then suddenly overheating
Because primary internal heat
Likes it eighty without layering
Fault Lines
When a healer warrior woman
Is paired with a male human
That relationship develops conflict
If her power is seen as threatening
—-
(Title of multiple meanings)
Is It Really Too Much To Ask?
“To be able to clean my own bedroom?!”
Darn It!
“Even only mildly and briefly vacuuming increases facial zones’ numbing reactivation!”
(Grrrr)
(Where The Heart Is – HAEVN)
And Just Maybe,
He could be the one to take away the pain and let her heart go quiet.
You See,
Any man that she had loved had discarded and/or had blamed her for their sufferings – so regardless of their claims’ lack of validity, she was haunted by the idea that somehow her love was tainted by some sort of poisoning.
(We Are – HAEVN Music, Symphon8c Tales)
More Masking
“I have some ‘neck folds’ and ‘jowel’ contours that I keep working on to retrain fascial strengthening and smoothing due to the anterior portion of my neck injuries.
But trends in society like to say that this is how I should look for ‘my age’ – and if I didn’t have them, they would likely project jealousy!”
(Celestial Gratitude – Faller Music)
Days As We Knew Them
She’d heard this evening that a suspected immense ship had come into range of their planet – and begged inwardly that he’d arrive to be with her as soon as possible, while they still had time left.
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