Category: A Woman’s Plight
How Can I Now?
Ever
Feel
Good
Enough
What Is The Goal?
“The goal is to keep going forward…
Survival.”
It’s Weird
“To see doors closing that I once thought were still open to me.
Like…
I don’t think that I’ll ever do a year abroad now for school.
The concept seems ridiculous now with exhaustion from disability.”
(Can’t Let Go – Tony El Campeon)
No,
“It’s not about money.”
(You Never Give Me Your Money – The Beatles)
Migraine Madness
I think I must shut down this entire need
This cycle of longing driving into frenzy
It is the situation – the abandonment cycle
Had I known, I would not have fallen into it
But I thought that it was an open invitation
That it was genuine honesty – for once given
Not another bait / switch retract scenario
Designed to send me into another tailspin
How Can I?
“Put on makeup when I’m crying?”
(I Just Found You – NOVRA)
Dear Friend,
“The pain wants me to push against and turn away from you now.
I might push, but I will hold my ground.
Even if the pain distracts me and I am slipping.”
How Should It Be?
“I don’t know…
But I have coffee.”
Winter
Bites
Happy?
Now
(Ascensionism – Sleep Token)
I’m Not Gonna
“No…you don’t get to see my internal mess, here…”
Word Of The Day: Blanched
“Since when does it no longer mean shocked or having color drained from, for example?
As in sudden reaction leading to other reactions…”
(Lockdown, migraine, etc.)
Blanched
“Of course I recoiled when I saw you.
You can’t just walk into my scene and expect me to be able to control myself without any warning when I am already fraying at the seams!
Are you here to help me, or just to tease and torment by your leaving?
You make me want to get my hands on you and show you some things about manners!
Then, you wouldn’t be leaving…”
—
(Title & content of multiple meanings)
Who Made Me Like This?
“I did…
I’m an anomaly in the system – under pain and pressure to give in.”
The Breaking Point
“You know – it takes a lot of strength to maintain my composure and not throw myself upon you – and I just don’t have the muscle strength nor pain tolerance to keep up with these ‘playing it cool’ reservations!”
Taking Pain Lightly
It was just another neck tension migraine…
Holding Space
She always retracted when he came into a room.
He thought that meant she didn’t like him.
But it was because she was so attracted.
It was complicated.
She didn’t want to harm or alter him or his course in any way.
She respected and yet needed him too much.
She would require him to include her in everything.
She couldn’t hold her love back with any measure of balance – and feared its affect upon him.
—
(Title of multiple meanings)
Phasing Out
She was passing through a dim dressing room when she was anonymously given a dark cape with a collar like a lion’s ruff, which allowed her to pass through the veil.
Can I Just?
Go back to sleep now?
Can I not be in pain?
(Back To Friends – Sombr)
Ghosts In The Machine
I feel you there
Waiting, watching
But you are not here
As delaying, debating
Don’t you know?
I want to be altered
Forced to ignore you
My steps falter
A Slanted View
“I greatly dislike how the injuries from the accident have increased burdens that I was already carrying.
What is this?
F-ing Boss level?!”
(Bare Truth – OverHeaven)
The Load
It isn’t easy carrying the weight on my own
No, in fact, I am very tired to faltering now
But I still know how to instinctively brace
Creating a type of pressure distribution
I just wonder what it would be like
To not have to hold the line alone
Quadly Quads
“It doesn’t help that my quads in addition to taking force straight through them of a speeding heavy car, they also froze and still adhere to thigh bones and tissues around them.
It is taking so very long in trying to get them to reactivate and differentiate again – which lacking this pulls even more on hip joint attachments.”
I Really Am
“A ‘child’ of the 70’s.”
(LOL)
(Love Or Nothing – Uriah Heep, 1978)
Living One’s Truth
“Rather than using it to harm or force others.”
Making Peace Within
Responding to a beloved family member:
“Thank you for responding with your points of view.
I apologize – but I had to stop reading because it felt like the validity of my real, hard-earned, and deeply considered experiences was being blasted apart by religious assertions irregardless of my truth.
I am too fragile at present to retain strength of neutrality after sharimg something so preciously personal to me which I have fought my entire like to reclaim and own as mine.
There have always been many religions and beliefs that promoted, supported, and nourished love and promoted health of our natural environment.
I believe – and it makes sense – that ‘God’ has spoken to each ‘tribe’ of humanity through time in ‘words’ and concepts that share common truths.
Therefore, it is by right and my own ‘God bestowed’ ‘free will’ that I choose to retain independant discernment and listen for ‘God’s’ truths in the wind, in my instincts, through other people’s goodness, designs in the natural world, rhythms of the galaxies, etc.
Even Islamic beliefs, in original dictates, reinforced that every person’s relationship with ‘God’ was between that human and ‘God’ as sacred and inviolate – and admonished other ‘believers’ to stay out of others’ privacy of their homes and ‘knock it off’ with persecutionary criticisms and actions.
The original reasons for ‘Jihad’ were because entire tribes saved by Islam were tearing each other apart – and then about to be slaughtered by multiple invading forces that were surrounding them.
It was primaruly for self defense and to retain homelands and establish a reugn of just peace in that region.
Islam was given in order to save a mass race of people from sudden extinction, and is from the same ‘God’ of Abraham and Jesus – in fact, it openly recognizes these prior prophets.
After Islam’s prophet died, next ruling factions took the original teachings – as has happened with any prophet or great teacher throughout human history’s original lessons – and took what they wanted, changed what they chose to change, and threw away truths that they did not want further seen, understood, nor propagated.
Our remaining, ‘societally-accepted’ doctrines left for society today have been cultivated throughout centuries by political powers that be – irregardless of ‘God’s’ original, sacred intentions.
And, technically, when Jews, Christians, and Muslims are fighting, harming, and murdering each other, they are a family fighting at the same dinnner table and blaspheming in ‘God’s’ name.
Extremist zealotry, in itself, can also be seen as work of the ‘deceiver’ using scriptures and people as pawns to destroy Eden’s foundations of mutuality in co-existence and shared caretaking.
Many religions today cut that part out and say since we were cast from Eden, we have been given the right to carve up the land and each other – with no personal sdlf accountability.
B.S. – and No Thank You.
Please do not expect that I shall ever convert to nor support any ideologies rife with distortion that try to and/or continue to propagate hypocrasy and atrocities – especially when done in ‘God’s name.’
If I misunderstood your reply’s intent due to my current sensitivities, I hope that in the future we may have opportunity to share concepts and the wonderous joy about ‘God’s love,’ and recognize the sancity of ‘God’s wisdom’ in encouraging diverse human and nature’s forms expressing ‘His’ love in our world – and even beyond our world’s boundaries.
I love you so much and appreciate your points of view.
I know that you, also, have certainly worked hard to ascertain them.”
(Would You Still Want Me – Vermouth IV)
“Get Along Back” (Electronica Dance Groove / Driving Song)
By Athena Stairs, November 9, 2025
(Get along back)
(Get along back)
(Get along back)
(Get along back)
(Get along back)
(Get along back)
(Get along back)
(Get along back)
And they mistake (pause) me for a woman that’s crazed
Ain’t ever seen one on fire that ain’t been insane
But they forget (pause) what makes life feel alive
Is burnin’ passion for love – just give the place and the time
I’m movin’…
I’m groovin’…
I’m movin’ on gettin’ on jumpin’ back on that track
And there ain’t no way baby that they’re draggin’ me back
Because it’s high (pause) time we give that booty a smack
And there ain’t no point to loosin’ if we can’t win it back
I’m movin’…
I’m groovin’…
And there ain’t no point to loosin’ if we can’t win it back
I’m movin’…
(Get along back)
(Get along back)
I’m groovin’…
(Get along back)
(Get along back)
We’re movin’…
(Get along back)
(Get along back)
We’re groovin’…
(Get along back)
(Get along back)
(Get along back)
(Get along back)
(Get along back)
(Get along back)
(Get along back)
(Get along back)
(Get along back)
(Get along back)
I’m groovin’…
—
Obviously bumpin’ rhythmically…layered female voicing of one woman of many minds coming into “concert,” etc.
(Please contact me for permissions)
However,
Her efforts would be pointless
If she were not in return prized
—
(Catch the pun? :D)
Grabbing The Bull’s Horn
She could get knocked off of her path
But she could also reevaluate strategy
Dissolving
Darling – project onto me so that I may aid:
What hooks are still imbedded and pulling?
—
(Title of multiple meanings)
Disclosure
Of course, I fear criticism
But I more fear losing you
You are what is most important
And love’s fragility we’re holding
Compromise
My love, they deceive you to
Keep you enchained believing
In dependence assuring freedom
But your beating heart is bleeding
What better balance may be struck
To guarantee our true love’s luck?
—
(Title of multiple applications)
A Unicorn’s Sword
Symbol’s strength given to
Guard a woman’s chastity
“Only meant for virgins”
Message was for clarity
For the horn becomes more powerful
When it’s shared with the right woman
Honey
Sweet and sticky
Your lies convince
Of giving nourishment
But they are only excuses
Meant to keep your heart safe
After the hive’s been vandalized
Hey – YOU!
“Knock” it off, already
&
Come give me a kiss!
Capricorns I’ve Known
Like unicorns brandishing horns
Climbing to the top of mountains
Bugling their vision unhearing
Other sight having equal merit
What pressures felt to be right
Rooted in earth bound so tight?
Telescopic points of dissuasion
Difficult to budge if bargaining
Goat head-butting forcing truths
Demanding respect’s adherence
Knocking others off their paths
Chiding them for not following
I wonder if they had been raised
With more gentility of generosity
Perhaps they wouldn’t need to worry
About being so righteous in their glory
And my love for them wouldn’t be wasting
Upon sharp stones where it was trampled
Note that I too can
Brandish my horn
—
(Revised from original unposted writing in April)
Unicorn Trauma Bonding
He found her one day
Not realizing she was
Impaled by others’ horns
& Stuck to the Tree of Life
Bleeding out in silence
Trying to hide the pain
Relying on camouflage to
Avoid alerting predators
The shock in her eyes was
Recognition not rejection
Instant pushing away flash
Had been meant to protect
Both him from her desperation
And because she had infection
Kind of hard to exhibit confidence
And go prancing to a most beloved
After unsticking one’s self without
A way to cauterize deep wounding
So he left not understanding that
She wanted most to be with him
Exposure
She knew she ran the risk
Of driving his interest away
By showing more of her hand
Making play perhaps too easy
But she was willing to gamble
For love’s high stakes winning
Fame & Fortune
It wasn’t for the money
It was for shared reality
Needing You
Everything in me twitches
Aching to give us release
Love’s Song
They offer to teach me singing
But my greatest song is loving
Everything about him
Wanting more to hold
