Category: Altered States

Altered States

Static Cling

Candid Corvid Productions

My hound has eaten the wood ends
Of the vintage designed coffee table

Because she has witnessed the others
Chewing on as ruining kitchen chairs

She has lost all reserve hollering
The others wear no bark collars

Anarchy reins supreme by family
Coming and going in own skeins

I have the honor of assisting
When arms want to overturn

Chaos, dirt, and mess by strength’s
Redetermination that I can’t access

Altered States, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

Self Recipe For Post Concussion Healing

Candid Corvid Productions

Craniosacral opening of spine, neck, and head light programming – Day1-2 post concussion

Enforced personal therapy trigger points all over head, neck, shoulders, back, and spine  over several hours trying to unlock compression, free brain from suffocation, and reduce high-intensity inflammation pain – Day 1 evening

Osteopathic Manipulation doctor gentle realignment cuing – Day 4 post concussion

Meanwhile, daily gentle excercises at gym to reconnect joints, muscles, and spine stability

Light Neurofeedback to help brain firing restabilize and reclaim prior gains – Day 7

Frontal hematoma and swelling first major release, causing brain cavity internal adjustments with injury severe exposure pain in sudden, periodic major shifting that I do not think anyone should have to be consciously experiencung while it is happening! – Day 9

(***DO NOT TRY THIS ON YIUR OWN AT HOME – OMG LOL!***)

A Woman's Plight, Altered States, The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

As Far As I Can Go

Candid Corvid Productions

The paramedics, except one, did not want to take her seriously.

And right when they arrived at the hospital’s exchanging, her being felt that she was not being transferred into safe keeping.

Immediately, the intake male nurse disregarded the pain and difficultties that she was having.

He made her further hurt herself by refusing to help her reattempt on her own to get into the wheelchair in his disregard’s treating her inhumanely.

Until she refused to try anymore until they brought someone who had any decency.

An older woman arrived, and for no provocation they’d also brought security.

The older woman stepped in front of her and to the right – and then the patient could grip and position herself where they wanted her to be.

The older woman hummed softly as she pushed her to a room where she could lay down again to manage the pain and imbalanced fluid exchange.

A brief blessing of kind compassion that help her reorient and keep trying to self stabilize.

It was a room reserved for mental patients, with cameras and a lockable closing door, where she could hear the nursing staff loudly joking at the ER station and one later said after she pressed the help button – “As if there isn’t someone down the way who is actually dying!”

At that point, she got help to call her eldest, because they didn’t seem to care or believe that she was dealing with brain trauma.

And while she was waiting, she finally began recording how loud and irreverent they were all being generally, irregardless of the fact people were there, hurt and dying.

They must’ve seen and heard her on the cameras, etc., because suddenly the noise got quieter.

And once her eldest arrived, they became more respectful and her eldest helped advocate for another scan against the doctor’s resistance to ensure that the sudden onset of symptoms did not include further risk from hemoraging.

‘Please take me to a different hospital if needed in the future,’ she requested to her eldest at the end.

Nothing like being confused and terrified with people making it worse by refusing to help as gaslighting.”

Altered States, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

Slip-N-Slide

Candid Corvid Productions

“I have been trying to figure out why my several, strong attempts to stop my flipping fall head first into the shower wall that Friday night failed and, instead, resulted in increasing momentum each time gripping moist hands hit the wall.

Usually, fiberglass-like plastic will have a dry squeek traction that one can engage with once out of the direct water’s flow – even with damp hands.

But, instead, a sequence of expounded upon slippery compounding effects resulted, assuring my impacting doom.

Then, yesterday, a friend reminded me that the cleanser used in hotel bathrooms is a spray that they wipe over the surfaces and never have time to rinse off.

I remember this being true from my own past experiences of when I briefly tried working in different hotels, but did not take the jobs because it was a thematic that management expects cleaners to cut corners for quick room turnovers.

So layers of this spray accumulate, and with no traction provided on the tub floor or bars on the wall for maintaining stability, the situation is a ticking time bomb scenario for an accident to happen.

I also noticed after being moved to a room with bars in the bathroom after the accident that those shower walls were also flexible.

So, great…

Flexible walls saved my life by providing some bounce to my head and shoulder impacts – instead of cracking with force into a hard surface – but slickery walls without bars was a set up to cause someone damage in the first place.

And I just happened to get the ‘luck of the draw’ that evening.”

A Woman's Plight, Altered States, The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense, The Shower Accident 11/14/25

Thematics

Candid Corvid Productions

She saw a sign saying”Bernard Malamud, ‘A New Life,’ and recognized that a new life was what she was indeed heading toward.

But she didn’t want to read the book because she was tired of so much messaging pounding upon her from every angle to get her to let it have its influence.

The title itself enough reinforced the truth  of what she was wrestling with – for certainly, there was no going back to what she’d had or was before.”

Altered States, Lone Wolf

Heart–Wake

Candid Corvid Productions

She was dozing, trying the fall asleep, when suddenly directly in front of her a huge black wolf snarl-lunged as it loudly barked with challenging admonishment toward and back away from her face with jaws wide open baring fangs to make sure that it had captured her attention while directly staring into her eyes.

Her heart and body jumped, startling her awake from this sudden vision.

A Woman's Plight, Altered States

I Saw “Signs”

Candid Corvid Productions

“Yesterday, the sun and clouds blazed brilliant – as if sendings from God and/or the universe.

I have not posted photos, yet, because the visual impacts on my mind are a lot to unpack.

And I don’t understand why I see such things – as if granted a peak behind the veil, or a definite message to keep me going – but then my life returns to gray survival mundane modes.

What do I do with – what happens to that energy?

Does it restart my soul’s vibrations so that even when the mortality of me despairs, my soul somewhere, somehow ‘knows’ greater things are unfolding and gains renewed purpose, so I will keep going?

Because I can say that right now, the mortality in me is very much too tired and 8 with these patterns of struggling.”