Category: Altered States
Sleep Deprivation
“From things we must tend to when daily life has been thrown out of balance.”
Up Too Late
“More agency paperwork.”
(Unintended – Muse)
If They’d Just
“If they could do contrast on my spine, they’d see more extensive damage than I’m given credit for.”
It Turns Out
“Both hips also took damage.”
Grim Whatevers
“I don’t have many of the few supports that I used to rely upon – whether caffeine for brain waking and then later calming, or rest in sleep.”
“Frenzy”
A Bone To Pick
“Must be picked when needing picking.”
(Games Without Frontiers – Peter Gabriel)
Free Will
“I don’t want to have faith in a god who causes or allows suffering.”
(Oh! Wot a Dream – Kevin Ayers)
Struggle
“‘Brings down the walls of pride,’ state lyrics from a religious song.
‘Middle fingers in the air,’ if that’s the type of god we must endure – giving me more and more crisis to bear (all of us, for that matter).
No ‘free will’ kept promises, here – just mixed-messaging lashes and unconsentual bondage.”
It’s Very Nice
“To be able to help my loved ones gives purpose to the struggles.
Avoiding unnecessary vet bills in time of financial deficit is crucial.
I’ve been helping to unwind dog muscle lockdowns to free up bellies for digestion.
Of course, then I need to rest my back on top of a heating pad.”
I’ve Said This Before
“Once again, construction site low, high intensity rumbles are taking place next to my home with rarity in stopping as tractors plow and reshape the landscape.
Last year is was one lot, and now another.
The waves hit harder through the body.”
Medication
“As good as this one diverts the pain, it makes my tissues swollen.
I’m looking for a cure – not more alterations.”
New Findings
“As I work with a mini foam roller, it becomes apparent that there are other regions of my spine that are not just referred pain zones that doctors keep claiming, despite symptoms that I have explained to them.”
(Go Back – John Summit & Sub Focus ft. Julia Church)
Stress Sickness
“Adrenals overproducing.
I need to stop – but I can’t.”
Fun
“Waiting in the food bank line.”
(The Final Countdown – Europe)
The Final Countdown
“Deadlines for obtaining stability retention supports are this Friday.
Oohhhhhhhh!”
(See song)
Questions…
“If you burn your tongue from too hot broth, can you put aloe vera on it to heal it?”
High Hopes (As In, Am I?)
“It is my hope that as I continue to work out, my tissues will realign and regain their fascial tensility.
I think this as I throw a pillow sheet into the hamper at distance – and feel my left pec flex, which was not throwing, rather than the right one, which was.
What is going on in my muscular systems?”
Word To The Wise
“When disrobing in preparation for a shower de-skunking, if you place those clothes into a plastic bag, tie it off and suspend it out from the towel rack away from contacting anything until reclothed again.
Then, take it outside and toss it someone neutral near the garbage can (no, I’m not going to mess with smell further by trying to wash the items – you can choose your own adventure if you walk into a cloud of fresh skunk spray.)
Don’t throw it into the can until right before garbage is due to be picked up if you want to not have that smell long term further imprinted.”
I’m Sure
“This is all much better at distance.”
Oh, Wait…
“Did ya miss me?” the ache throbs in warning.
Pfft.
You Guessed It,
“The migraine finally let go of me – if only ‘momentarily.’
Thank bleep-n bleep bleep!”
Hard Reset
“I’m hoping that the solution ate the smell/oil, since it seemed to eat my skin.”
(Beautiful Colors – OneRepublic, from Kaiju No. 8)
Penalized Good
“As I exited the driveway, a loose, young Aussie mix came zooming up on my front left nosing a young skunk in its rear.
Braking to ensure that I did not hit them, I got out of the car to try to catch the dog after it broke off – not wanting it to get hit by a passing car.
Um.
Yeah…
Stepped right into the zone of skunk spray.”
Pain’s Rage
“Of course when the vise is twisting, I want to go after who did this to me.”
Hell
Nerve-compression migraine
(Hold On – Faodail & noo)
Despair
Something that lurks
Waiting to take hold
Working advantage
Networking
Switching modalities and focus
What triumph can I pull together?
(I Need You Most Of All – Stephen Sanchez)
The Question
“Am I comin’, or goin’?”
Weeeeeeeee!
“Enough said.”
AH-HAHAHAHAHA!
“It looks like I may be going back to school!”
(Memory – Alex LeMirage)
Neurofeedback
“I had my first session today, desperate to move my body into any sort of positive healing.”
Captain’s Creed
“If I my ship is going down, I must make sure that the others can make it to safety.”
(Summer’s Ending Soon – The Midnight)
I Try To Tell Myself
It’s ok…it was all a gamble
Got me this far as shamble
It’s Funny
“Thinking on how I’d again live out of my car…”
Golf Course
Enduring symbolism
Full circle memories
Paused in a moment of
Complete helplessness
(Pedals – Leo Faulkner)
Lapse Of Reason
Any success seems momentary
As expends and then falls apart
(Title of multiple meanings)
Responsibilty
“No one is responsible for me – except maybe the person who hit me and caused these disabilities.
But frankly, I just want the cures with healing and return of my capabilities.
Can I have this, please?”
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