Category: Altered States

As of today, I am dropping any classes that have enforced timeline structure – except for upcoming training workshops.

I think I could hold it…with the right person of a certain “mind.”

Be receptive, responsive, and in the moment.

Maybe it was true that her life’s track just kept encountering the dead end culdesacs in other people’s realities.

But then, how could she reposition herself better to converge where life paths were flowing?

Embracing life, love, and commitment.

We had to help our tiger transition to the other side.

No, da** it – NO!

You know, it isn’t my job to decipher.

It is my job to seek and find congruency.

Sweet music comes to greet,
Coaxing souls into opening –

Only to find reality barren
Before dancing could begin.

“Lo!  For I’ve seen the lies woven, though designed to conceal! Get thee away from my divine intentions in your insidious transgressions designed to corrupt innocence and propagate entropy!”

Just because innocence prefers to not attack does not mean that it is incapable, when cornered.

“Oh baby, you know how it is…

You’re either predatory like us, staying on top to win – or meat turned into fodder.

Which side do you think will win…?”

If certain attractions inevitably lead to certain outcomes, maybe I could learn to struggle less and just enjoy the ride.

Traveling through others’ paradigms.

Somebody, somewhere, has already said it all, before.

“I won’t ask for what you will not give.

And I won’t give what I cannot receive.”

Based upon truth – glorious.

Built upon lies – insidious.

Nothing is as it seems.

There is no victory.

Apparently, non-committal is still the rage.

Lockdown

I still shoulder and brave the world on my own.

Why?

Why am I like this?

Because if I gave away certain values, I could never atone…

I’ve been dealing with others’ extremes for so long, that my own would seem readily manageable were it not for the daily variabilities due to nerve injuries.

Wee!

When she couldn’t get far enough down the main road, she had to turn off and divert attentions again.

Shedding the tendencies to desire mutuality is not easy.

Relaxation

“Come what may…”

To be unable to reach for and retrieve that which is mine is maddening.

It is harrowing to be trying to keep animals alive and well when they are not well!

Tasks continue regenerating,
Challenges remain daunting,
Difficulties are compounding.

The difference is facing it, every day, no matter how crushing…

Even if the boat capsizes, one can work to flip it back over.

I don’t know how to actually resolve it under societal and life pressures that only shift, rather than relent.

I just keep revisiting personal goals, despite feeling energetically spent.

I already know what I need to know – if I could allow myself to view it!