Category: Altered States

Mischief managed for the moment!

“Maybe if I didn’t try to keep growing and doing things, the disrupting chaos would not find me.

But, somehow, I find this unlikely.”

Things I must do
Vs.
Things I want to do

“As one account is borked, and others are blocked, emergencies blare as hit deadlines.”

The nice, empty quiet of solitude, sucking at senses for attention while trying to be productive.

“How I think rest will ease the pain, when all it does is clear fuzz from my brain and make acute awareness even greater.”

“What the -?!”

“Having the bank accounts seized by factors beyond my control magnitudinally increases the difficulty of managing.”

“It takes awhile, and I wonder if it will come – but then alignment pulls me forward from my bed.”

“I couldn’t have handled the upcoming week had I not given myself space – but the adrenal cortisol sudden hits now are more than I can take!”

“Insurmountables which must be surmounted.”

“Giving in therapy these days is taking a huge draw on reserves that are ghost remnants.”

“Strong, yet delicate.”

“Super-fried Fricassee-frittered.”

She felt “messed up” because what if he didn’t want her?

“If we can see the lies that have entrapped us, maybe we can figure a way around them.”

“We’ve been conditioned to believe that heartbreak and deceit are just the way life is.”

“When caught repeatedly within embroiled inequities of one form to another, the real battle becomes the struggle to overcome imposed belief that one will never rise above.”

“MINE – I WILL OWN THEM!!!”

(Sound the battle cry)

“Stuck in my car at 12:30am from the shock…”

“It’s a testament as to how deep the ditch is that I’ve been shoved into, that when I begin to finally emerge, I am met by renewed resistance.”

“The neighbors diagonal-across the way must’ve moved, because their lovely yard, with the lovely tree always draped endearingly wuth bright, tiny evening lights, were all ripped out and replaced with a flat and nondescript, monocultured lawn.”

“It’s f-ing hard to be pragmatic.”

“Nothin’ like being constantly badgered into feelimg like one has no control over their life’s circumstances!”

“Enough said – MF’s”

“My already empty bank account gets hit by some mystery $700 Federal charge, massively overdrafting.”

“In some ways, my mind processes things so rapidly while extrapolating complicated variances interdimensionally – I’m not sure a partner could meet, or even keep up with me!”

“When and where is the time for love’s smoldering?”

Moments passing by
Crammed overlapping

None of them retainable
As if love is negotiable

“Squeezing dimes from dwindled resources to get a little farther down the road.”

“I must hold myself in a type of balance.”