“Not many men can say Forever – and mean it.”
Category: Male Bonding
What Makes A Man
“Think he has the right to string a woman along without any enduring benefits to her?
Oh, that’s right.
Because she cared enough to open her heart to him – and then he thought that he could just take her for granted.”
(Fuming at the past)
Across Distance
She had wondered if she ought to sway with him to match his energy – and then startled when he broke the pattern to preserve his focus because he’d felt and gotten distracted by their synergy.
Summoning
As if he had her mesmerized by his voice under deep hypnosis, he asked her, “How are you going to help me?” in return, quietly, “
Suddenly, deep muscles long bound in corkscrew tight complexity surged in a responsive spasm, instinctively attempting to break free to reach out and prove her abilities to aid him.
What’s Been Sown
Caught up in your fractured symmetry
The beating of my heart plays timpany
And I expect no sympathy from
Anyone who does not know us
Two peas in a pod destined to deliver
No matter rules’ consequences broken
Given
One of the suitors approached her gently and asked her to re-engage with him.
“I can’t. I’m sorry,” she replied immediately.
“But how can you know that he’ll come back for you? Don’t you think that’s too big of a risk to take while you are left here alone without answers, just waiting?”
“I know, I know the wayt this can go – but I can’t do anything other than to do what I’m doing, now that he lives inside of me.”
How Had He Done It?
He had slipped right past
Barriers long ago sealed
She knew it was her fault
Returning to glance again
Right when he also turned
And their eyes met openly
Passing Glances
Her voice grew dimmer
As he continued farther
Trying to tell him truth
While he could hear it
Not wanting to disrupt
His careful momentum
Unsure if he’d return
Tears flowimg silent
I’m Learning
“A lover must aim for another lover in order to find true happiness.”
(Paralyzer – Finger Eleven)
Afraid To Try Again
“Well, yeah…for my whole life so far, I have been chastised, berated, belittled, and shamed for caring and loving.”
Counting Losses
“Part of healing retraining today has involved working on TMJ muscles and related energetic and myofascial tension associations.
I had not realized that my jaw held the intense grief from my fiance breaking up with me, and that this tension further suspended down through the front of my neck and into my sternum causing central diaghragmatic breath constriction.
The whole anteriority of external self expression if one were to authentically expel breath, cry, yell, protest, and/or scream at such a loss had been frozen.
I had just taken the blows and absorbed that energy because I knew that the situation was extreme – and I refused to add to the negativity that he’d experienced from others which had pushed him to his decision.
This suppression of my own tormented reactions also kept me from experiencing further humiliation because keeping myself composed prevented their projections from being validated as reality.
The remnants of this incredibly complex and intense situation have haunted and kept me cautious in being directly forward about my deep feelings for another man.
I think that the entire situation imparted a sense of shame upon me for having believed in my fiance, and for risking to try with him.”
Priorities
(Climbing – Steve Tibbets)
The King’s Blessing
There had been too many tragedies
As a result of decisions made past
Too many losses experienced
When no one can ever go back
The weight of the world had always
Been his burden of responsibility
Generations of corrupt collusions
Cast doubt upon worth of fealty
He had not supported their actions
Yet still carried the onus of ancestry
And Fate can become unkind when
Forces of Chaos manipulate destiny
But somewhere beneath crushed pride
Remained an embered memory of love
It burned too much to touch it so
He’d gripped it with leather glove
Once released if it were possible
He’d have fallen to beg upon knees
As remembered their flights together when
Sacred winds had whispered through trees
And wished with all of his heart that
She could again love wild and free
(Beggin’ – Chris Lake & Aluna)
Objects Of Desire: Sleep Token Clip
9/23/25
Honor Among Thieves
What has only been temporary
Must transform into longevity
To be granted passage opening
Heaven’s gates to love’s paradise
Let It Be Known
“I am not ‘optional.'”
Education
“He didn’t value it – thus,, didn’t value my pursuit of it.”
Past Loves
“Ended by male non-participation.”
(Together – Jay Aliyev)
Yep
Just Be True
Text Conversions
Weak Vs. Strong Men
Romantic Choices
“You what, ‘mate?'”
If A Man Has Done His Work
It Must Be Magic!
(Numb – Elderbrook, Chill Mix)
Striking Out
She had given them chances aplenty, but abandonment was always a dealbreaker.
(Missing Limbs – Sleep Token)
Severed limbs
She had been there for him through his worst times, but when his crazymaking and her longterm starvation for his love converged into a sickening slew, he abandoned her – later stating that he could not carry any weight to be there for her.
True Dat
Black Dragon
Laughs at machinations
Opening her own maw
To swallow them whole
Feasting on own blood
Transmutating power
Back into her hands
Leaving them gaping
In awe and wonder
As she takes to
Broken skies
Chem Trails
The hyper-sexualized narcicist thought he’d had her in his clutches by way of hormones procurred soaking into her bloodstream.
But to his vexation, she didn’t give a sh** about addiction when it came to there being an absence of love involved.
Bear In Mind
“Games are fun, but I do not like being manipulated.”
(Title play with words – Raar!)
(Magic Man – Heart)
Lost Trust From Abandonment
“Due to lack of others’ followthrough.
I guess this is why I keep trying to be independent.
Necessity into habit.”
Healer & Protector
“They are saying this is a right combo.
I kept developing my skills as a healer, but the others stopped protecting.
I had to take on both roles in absence of others’ followthrough.
No wonder I struggle with burnout.”
(Love Language – Crooked Colours)
The Trouble With Ex’s
“They were afraid of my power and/or underestimated my adaptabilities.”
(Dark Signs – Sleep Token)
Last Years Of “Normal”
A college professor
Crossed boundaries
Exciting inclusions
Turned infiltrative
Wanted to hear
Trauma secrets
Insidious warp
Sexual power
In guise as
Counselor
Lidded eye
Distortions
Pushing agenda
Crumbled focus
Breaking spell
Compromised
Grasping key
Cut Bachelor’s
Couldn’t regain
Disrupted track
In reawakening
Poetic messages
Finding moments’
Simple interludes
Chance to succeed
Ending as bloomed
Base support
Underminded
Gross human
Unkindness
Anarchistic
Rebellions
Destroying
Good cause
In name of
“Freedom”
(Sail – AWOLNATION)
Growing Pains
Well my “once-upon-a-times”
We each must move onward
No more threats of death
Allowed to hang over us
No more running away
From trials of each day
Just facing and bracing
Remembering lessons
Hard-earned by blood
Lost between fingers
Stemming the wounds
By gauzed-over sutures
And turning our faces to
Become whole under sun
(Teardrop – Massive Attack)
Bitter Ends
I never wanted to hurt you
And did all I could not to
Yet you were the one
Who broke the rules
And we both became
An example of fools
Diminished Stature
I knew you were under pressure
And that you would regret losses
But I also had no control
You took it away from me
How could I ever trust you again
Having suffered consequences?
How can I trust any man
To stand tall beside me?
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