Category: Stream of Thought

Having given my all and more, data analysis points to going it alone.

Likely, I will have better quality of living without difficulty in gaining mutuality.

I am tired – quite literally – of wasting time on prospects that do not benefit me equally.

Awaiting Invitation.

I am called to be where few access, yet is the center of my universe and reason for my existence.

How to be in a relationship of heart, mind, and soul that fulfills and keeps things spicey?

To have myself and beloved ones within a light so bright that all harmul darkness just melts away.

The only consistency in life that we can count on is what we put into it of our own.

Being among the first to ride the crest of a new wave, it is easier to look back upon the force that is coming and to recognize that nothing can stand in its way.

It’s a mentality plaguing every nation, rather than embracing complexity and improving on diversity.

An anti-inflamatory supposedly more gentle on the liver causes more muscle spasms when come off of it than had before, and body swelling.

Oh yeah…and likely “may cause death.”

Russian Roulette.

She realized this is what she always gravitated toward, and needed.

Thinking about using the chapstick while reaching for the roll-on, I almost applied deodorant to my lips!

A person who explores dream worlds, usually associated with lucid dreaming.

https://www.wordsense.eu/oneironaut/

I’ve got me a craving to make them hot, thick and fluffy from buttermilk and being fried in butter, with a sprinkle of powdered sugar and drizzle of maple syrup or slather of apricot jelly covering, crowned by a wholloping heap of freshly whipped cream. Mmmmmm, Good!

If takes a while to reestablish a sense of normalcy and confidence that the self can rely upon after experiencing long periods of tumult and instability.

It is difficult to regulate perceptions of stress, maintain positive productivity, and embark on new ventures if one is thrust back into extreme unknowns.

Of course they want someone who’s younger than they are: men like to feel “in control.”

If one adds up all the primes from the least through the greatest prime factors of 155, that is, 5 and 31, the result is 155. (sequence A055233 in the OEIS) Only three other “small” semiprimes (10, 39, and 371) share this attribute.

https://en.m.wikipedia.org › wiki

155 (number) – Wikipedia

I do not mind a little dressing up –
Just the loss of my entire identity.

I had been feeling under the weather for a couple of weeks and could not seem to get my pep back, until what ever was riding finally got to me.

Recognizing I was compromised before symptoms visually surfaced took bravery on my part to admit – and was the best timing for all concerned because I was not yet contagious.

It would be nice if other people recognized this type of diligence, rather than continuing with imposed beliefs that we must work until we make ourselves worse – and infect the people around us in the process.

I was in love with the hidden things about him. Those sparks that led to deeper intellect, and a heart worth keeping.

Now that I pull away, I still see glimmers of this inherency, but the smokescreen meant to keep people guessing now dominates everything.

Love is like a drug that can elevate you no matter what is happening, promoting a type of lasting “high.”

When you no longer have a focal point for it, disconnecting from it can feel like heavy depression.

Here is not a bad place to step out from illusion. There, everywhere one turned had been crazy.

What worked for one person’s ambition in a certain scenario is not necessarily the right strategy for a person in a similar but different scenario – and she was not going to get her self mislabeled!

As patterns begin to repeat with places revisited, subconscious management begins recognizing where data is more relevant. Anxiety then tenuously relaxes as functionality increases at the right times and places.

I see her there, in her coat and gloves…

Walking her dogs.

She doesn’t realize how much she matters.

I pull into myself and retreat like a snail that got its eye stalks poked.

One would think there would be Choice in the matter.

She dreamed she guarded the younger woman from bullets with her own body.

What was it about protecting his interests that she just couldn’t let go?

Even after she disconnected, she had yet another dream where she proved her qualities over the vapid superiority of another.

Why were surface facades still valued over deeper levels? Why dream of that family’s inclusiveness as a desire?

She knew how to be on her own, and being on her own as a genuine contributor was better than being with others who did not truly see her.

Why was I saved from engulfing oblivion?
What purpose here in absent communion?

30 years.

10 years.

3 Years.

1.

For all of my hard work, on my one day off I wake up with a crimp in my neck, causing a migraine that won’t relent.

Is my life just layers of suffering? When the pain comes, this messaging imbeds.

It is difficult to trust others these days – though perhaps, it has always been this way.

It seems to be just a matter of time before you are seen as Expendable: either it happens upon initial contact, or becomes an inevitable.

One’s own spiritual and intellectual strength.

I am being directed as a catalyst to help move people on to their next positive levels of purpose.

I enjoy this while in the specific role as a healer

But, I do not like it when I am used for others’ selfish gains.

I am angered when left empty from greed’s drain.

Let beauty no longer be only skin deep.

Let it come from Within.

The only text reply I was given upon inquiry was “It is what it is.”

It seems that I am a Knight without an Age of Chivalry.

Did I mention that we have to move again?

The landlord won’t say why – and I struggle every night to not pick myself apart over it.

It is likely because we needed Covid Relief help, and although we made sure that the landlord received every rent payment and this is our first month back on our own feet, it seems that we have been judged as “less than worthy.”

I seem to be able to help the people who come to me in real need. It is a blessing, an honor – and exhilarating (though exhausting, lol) to help set them free of chronic discomfort and/or adhesions from past injuries!

When I mention anything about money, scammers try to contact me.

These are things that Can, Ought to, and Will end.

What made a target was need.

If no longer need, no longer a target.

They say Truth reveals when you are ready.
But, I do not agree with control’s debating.

Agreeing, to help strengthen –
Even if don’t agree, personally.

To love without fear of others’ retributions –
For anything worthwhile is always attacked.

Religion

Sex

Politics

Get to the venue.

See what’s needed.

Make Good Happen.

It takes a while to develop
Confident competence
In any new venture.

Winter into Spring, I needed time to rehabilitate my injury and decompress.

I created space to rebuild my endurance, and although I never felt fully rested, I have apparently regained some ability to push myself a little harder.

I am keeping my load as simple as possible, trying to monitor for when I feel overwhelmed – and then offloading any extra that threatens to capsize until the next day when I can better manage.

I made extra money today in a new joint venture which has possibility to be ongoing.

I am trying to press against the membrane of resistance that has been holding me back from succeeding.

Like I said, it is a lot about gaining – and keeping – momentum.

A result of insecurity in Maslow’s Hierarchy.

Figuring out how to not take a blow personally is difficult as one staggers under weight of force.