Category: Stream of Thought

“Love thine neighbor” – unless they are not already part of your community.

Then stone them, or nail them to a cross.

It isn’t me. I don’t cause problems.

They always have pre-established clicks.

Thetefore, I’m seen as expendable.

“Eat, my sweet hounds – dear followers into unknown destiny!”

My brain and body have been boxed in for the last three years.

It’s been like being on lockdown, before, during, and after initial pandemic.

This mitigated my ingenuity and constrained my ability to create dynamic interrelationships.

I need to get over this hump of the local office resigning on me, and its effects on my psychology.

I am behaving shell-shocked, likely from what I’ve also just escaped from.

There are many other offices here, maybe an even better fit for me.

Or maybe, I’ll just go mobile-solo again.

I’m surprised to feel as if I’m thawing from ice.

I just need to get my muscles warmed up again.

When people turn against you and let you down.

People often attack what they do not – or refuse to – understand.

I’m beginning to have suspician that chiropractors do not want patients healed by massage therapy – and when they realize how good I am, they feel their position is threatened.

When I began my quest to leave there, I lept beyond my understanding.

Now that I’ve arrived, new learning’s just beginning.

There are different parameters of expectation placed upon you, depending on if you’re an independent contractor or employee.

But, if you are held to double standards, there’s no way to properly manuever to succeed.

1155 meaning is telling you that what you are now is not what you will always be. There is room for change and becoming better. Trust in yourself and your abilities and believe that everything in your life will work out. Trust in your guardian angels to guide and support you anytime you need them.

https://www.sunsigns.org/angel-number-1155-meaning/#:~:text=1155%20meaning%20is%20telling%20you,you%20anytime%20you%20need%20them.

I must no longer find blame in myself for others’ wrong doings.

Trying to keep ahead of the wave that threatens to crush me leaves little room for school or other self expansion.

The rich disparage the poor for not becoming educated, while dumping their garbage down the way for us to deal with.

Put them in a boat on Shit Stream without an oar – and see how well they’ll paddle!

When a person is in distress, their insides hang out.

One cannot review the good memories without a taint to their sweetness.

With constant, unexpected shifting of any minorly-gleaned elusive security capsizing and then burning, at some point the yammering, adrenaline-laden mind finally says:

“Fuck it!”

And opts out.

As I acknowledge both the good and bad as I write about my life, maybe I regain what others discarded.

It’s the loud, obnoxious kids that always got attention, gaining reward without merit like baby birds competing in a nest for survival.

But, all those baby birds that were more quiet and since diminished for lack of nourishment could have been keys to their species’ survival.

Just like introverts take the time to understand reasons and find solutions to ways that are no longer viable.

For now, I put off eating when hungry.

Extroverts seem to love always being on the surface of their consciousness, ready with a quick word of response and knowing exactly how they’d take quick command of a situation.

I am not sure if it’s from all of the head trauma or past suppressive abuse, but in my mind, there’s a layer of disconnect.

In healing sessions, my receive-and-response time is instant because I am more fully in the moment while my consciousness is firmly tethered to my senses.

But, in the external world, overt reaction takes a back seat, as the rest of me absorbs data of others’ intentions for later analysis and response reflection.

I have not received any response from the office regarding my request for fair play’s reconsidering.

Pedantic misrepresentation and lack of moral ethics seems widerspread than effects of the pandemic.

People have a hard time reconciling that a deep thinker is not necessarily judging and can also have playful and neutral aspects to them.

Prebias tends to want to.categorize and justify white-washed conclusions – possibly because many people have not diversified much in their own personality aspects.

And, when you are capable of being and expressing more dynamicly than those you frequently encounter, the world can seem devoid of reciprocative cheer – and full of idiocy.

Tell me what having one is like – be it between one’s self and the world; between the feeling of security vs. another’s enmity; or even any give-and-take flex in interactive relationships.

Is it something you’ve ever experienced, or is the real truth only that having one is a myth – like getting to ride a unicorn?

How does one remove from their self the guilt from others’ sins and the shame of their condemnation?

When congestion begins to thicken into white blood cell-laden mucosa, it layers passageways of one’s sinuses in head and neck along lymphatic channels, putting pressure on tympanic membrane and other balance orientation regulators.

What I dislike most about this process is the feeling of being “socked in” – as if pulled into myself, smothered, and seeing everything from too far away of a distance.

I ordered the same griiled sandwhich: gluten-free bread, cucumber, lettuce, carrots, pea sprouts, stoneground mustard, mayo, roast beef, and provolone cheese.

How can something that initially is large and fluffy just melt and disintegrate into your mouth – as if it was nothing?

This must truly be “Food of the Gods.”

Post nasal drip: Ack – it’s got me!

Filling up my lungs, making it hard to breathe and causing coughing.

I think deeply about things, and when I deeply think, I then think deeper.

It’s like being on an escalator that rises, then descends and goes side to side – analyzing from various angles to determine where something ends and begins in its breadth and spectrums.

If someone arbitrarily kicks you to the curb to save their own skin without questing for a better alternative, are they really someone you’d want to partner with in business or personal relationship?

As a hopeful optimist, I often initially give people “the benefit of doubt” – and am beginning to wonder if maybe I shouldn’t.

“Aim for the sky, because even if you miss, you’ll still be among the stars.”

How do you miss the sky and still be among the stars?

Choose carefully between the seen and the unseen, for intuition may guide you only so far as the truth is not actively hidden.

I’ve had it proven my therapies are beneficial and needed, yet in what forum may I be received and welcome?

My life must become more than managing others’ “fuckery” and its negative affects on me and my family!

I felt that if I said anything, this could cause overreaction.

It wasn’t that I was at all wrong – but that people are easily threatened.

Monicultures in any forum diminish diversity, weaken creative adaptability – and thus, destroy functional systems.

“To reach for the impossible dream” and seek for things unseen.

But, if I am, then crazy is what I’ve got to be.

I believed we were alike when I reached out to you, and I believed our commonality could mutually benefit.

But, you showed me that what mattered to you more was finding your carbon copy.

The people represented with angel number 446 are very sweet, emotional, generous, thoughtful, caring, and famous people. This number has people who want to help others, and they need to live in an environment where there is peace, tranquility, balance, and harmony, and in short, everything is stable.

http://www.angelnumbersmeaning.com/446

(In internet searches, I take what feels like it fits – and discard the rest.)

“The creation of a thousand forests is in one acorn.”

The effects of events’ actions change according to one’s position within their self, relative to “reality.”

Bwaaaahhhh.

(Sound reference to movie “Inception.”)

I stretch words to meanings that their initial conveyance seems to imply to me.

For example, this word “truism.”

To me, this word can mean what seems to be true, but isn’t necessarily true.

The word conveys sense of a field of active illusion surrounding some things.

It promotes sense of what we might see as true, but could actually be a veiled inaccurate conclusion.

I have not found that I can count on any adults for longer than temporary, and thus I may only commit to alliances that will not easily vary.

The ground I’ve gained now must be secured and fortified, for investing in myself prevents being compromised.

The blackbirds I like are not on the song, but have a different particularly sweet cadence to their singing – although those on the recording are also quite fetching!

Out front in the parkway, the large trees to either side host their sweet soliloquys of which I’ve not heard since long ago from whence they emigrated.

it had been my long-standing dream to be reunited, for where they are, my heart feels complete.

Interferes with one’s sense of their own competence.

I only give myself one day off because the financial pressures keep on coming, despite needs for rest and recovery.

Obligations wait for no one.

Speakin’ my language!

It is one thing to be lead forward by inspiration, and quite another to spend one’s life chasing it.

Lavender lotion, cool and rich, smooths over contours of her face, neck and chest, leaving behind rainbow-hued, metallic feathers.

I enjoy being a catalyst if it is with my consent, in a role I’ve chosen, and I am rewarded by payment, friendship, or another’s improved well being.

But, what I absolutely dislike and actually resent is when men engage with me as if interested, then take the insight, wisdom, and care I profer which inspires them – and give these gifts away to some other woman.