Category: Stream of Thought

Believing in something that may actually have no basis in “reality” can be a dangerous investment.

As I explode into a sneeze that gets everywhere onto what I’m wearing despite attempts to catch it with a Kleenex, I reflect on UI benefits’ difficulties all through “having” it.

Funds would occasionally trickle down, but still remained locked in the system. Had I not made our move despite all odds, they’d hardly have benefitted beyond just paying my parents to stay stuck in that situation!

As I went from gas station to restaurant to random person, asking what transportation was currently running and finding none available, I resigned myself to walking home from the truck dropoff station.

Not usually necessarily a problem in concept – I mean, we have feet which are meant for walking! It’s just that the way home was along a busy freeway, with a cold, at night, and was relatively dangerous.

But, why I wanted to cry about it and almost full-out did was because I’m the leader: my partner isn’t home waiting for me, ready to applaud and reward my brave efforts.

I had to get home to be there for my youngling – and though our bond is strong, I must still carry most of the responsibility.

A parent’s job is to raise their children well – and then set them free.

He cannot be everything to me.

When I entered the bathroom this morning, I had to do a double-take – for there before me was a near full box of Q-tips!

My youngling had found them and put them there for us.

“Ask, and Ye shall Receive!”

A cold is attacking my system, trying to sabotage my ability to unload the truck.

I dreamed I’d found the Q-tips and began using them!

Perhaps it is my lot to crave that which is unobtainable.

Do I desire passionate embrace – even if it seems to only be brief – because “real” love can’t be expected to endure at that pace?

The flames I’d fan higher – and yet have rarely experienced – would not maintain even close to my preference.

I was taught to dive deep to “awaken from sleep,” but for others, this may be a novel experience.

“Q-tips, oh Q-tips…

Wherfore art thou, fair Q-tips?”

(still enmired, awaiting unpacking)

I found a backup brush – so exciting!

Puffed ankles from endurant standing.

Praising the Angel of Recall for helping me remember to retrieve my phone charger.

Are they God’s creations – or servants to you and me?

Wouldn’t they be jealous – or at the least, envious of our positioning?

What investments would they gain yields from in caring for and nurturing our well being?

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As it becomes more our reality that we’ll get to live here, it is strange to experience the quivering I feel at times (bordering on tears) at the genuine kindness and extension of humanity we’re encountering.

It may not always be easy to see by just a passing stranger, but to a sensitive who is seeking, if I reach for it now, it’s in the local people – ready and waiting.

It’s the hardest thing to turn away when love is sensed, just under the surface, and spirit is called to higher purpose.

But, my dear heart, we both know by now that we cannot make flowers bloom where they are not allowed to flourish.

Get off your seat – and out the door!

I must eat…

I get nervous when the portal opens, tranporting me forward – then sending me back again.

These streams of impressions: data, colors, messages; feelings, and underlying intentions…

How can I capture them all and convey them adequately to you so that you’ll find them as interesting as I do?

When you can’t lift one more finger to help or progress, despite how much you want to.

1am, 2am, 3am – close eyes – 5am, 6am…half moon hovers sharp and clear as the sun begins to rise.

We are leaving behind the many 5-gallon water bottles, backup large gas cans, and stockpile of dry wood with tinder.

I will not miss these reminders of isolation’s brutal hardship, where the unknown could mean life or death.

Do not make promises
You allow to be broken.

She knew he had an insatiable appetite, and that she would just be a means to an end – if she let him in.

I look back at how my home state held me – and how even I was captive on this mountain.

It’s important I be allowed to roam free, for there are many things that I have yet to understand.

That which is acquired through toil, sweat, and tears.

If one stays acutely attached to it, one cannot be functional.

Tangling with the trappings that settle around us as operant living in a bill-filled, insurance regulated, and biased society can be tricky and exasperating!

Did you know that this coverage will not cover you towing a vehicle needing repairs from one residence location to a new residence location?

The way around this is to tow from old residence to a repair shop near new residence, then have your normal Roadside Assistance tow it to new residence, until you are ready to tow it back to the repair shop.

Pretty smart thinking, right?

But then, AAA refused to tow my car because it is not currently registered.

The world would never accept her, unless she accepted herself.

Our landlord seems to be an amazing woman who sees through to the truth in things.

I feel blessed that we have found her and that she has invited us to live on her property.

Another way to generate funds when downsizing.

When I cannot find the solution where I am, I sometimes need to cross into another dimension to gain different perspective.

I glance at my reflection in the mirror while cleaning up in the bathroom.

The tired lines are tightening instead of sagging (yay!), but my gaze and set of jaw are formidable.

Testing, I allow a quirk of mirth to surface – and see my youth instantly arise, playfully.

It becomes apparent why sometimes people read me incorrectly.

They cannot see my receptivity, unless I want them to.

When the dogs like the way you smell, it’s time to take a bath.

When you are almost out of fuel/money/energy, you can keep pushing – to overextending.

Or, you can give up momentum for a day, and hope resources catch up or reveal to you.

A shelving’s uncompromising corner angle got me in the middle of my left shin muscle, righr along the bone!

Religion is meant to be a guide for people to help them live their lives well, and to act with charity and grace toward others.

It serves many other useful purposes as well, but what sparks religion is a need for this guidance.

And what keeps a religion vital is its ability to adapt to what the younger generations need.

As I brought the heavy shelving into my room with the two drawers full of crystals and miscellaneous importance, I happened upon the musical mechanism that used to be held underneath the lying down white pegasus statue.

It used to belong to my mother, but she had given it to me in my teens

The porcelain had finally broken around when my marriage did, and rather than continue carrying around fragments of broken leg, body, and head (a remindercogvbroken memories), I had saved the music.

Just now, I wound it, and though it played extremely slow, as the first notes struck I had to smile.

All this time in the background of my life, the song “To Dream The Impossible Dreams has been playing.

It has been with me like a friend,, ever reminding my spirit to keep striving.

It’s time to wake up my youngest to unload the heavy stuff.

Mother Earth must love me, for she keeps pulling me back down, whenever I reach for the stars.

Some people are built like fortresses, plowing through and past everything around them – while others are diaphanous, struggling to find barriers against the madness.

The void is not empty, but full of potential from that which has been discarded.

He didn’t want to do or be anything: he was the null to my aspirations.

Maybe what I desire on a deeper level is an easy commodity for others…

We will now have access to nearly anything we could want to do or go to.

Time, planning, and money are always necessities, but we can more easily see our horizons – literally!

The green-grass lawns outside our back windows, gently sloped and beckoning for a carefree romp with the dogs under protection of a gigantic redwood tree.

Please help me secure and keep this.

It’s difficult to see everything when you’re the leader of the pack.

I am definitely a resource specialist…ack!

When one can’t be perfect – but thinks they ought to be.