Category: The Accident – As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named “Clyde” (Short For Collide) Because It’s Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense

“I was able to briefly bolster in such a way to lay on my left side despite shoulder and neck injuries.

My heart could at last rest, instead of being perched high, suspended.

My stomach could cozy against intestines, instead of dangling inside, distended.

And my fingers twitched in REM when awakening from a few minutes’ slumber.

Lack of this positioning might be contributing to insomnia.”

STOP!

“It has been extreme since the accident.

Today I am trying a new medication for it, simply because I need to gain an edge on this whole thing.

It is supposed to be like Advil and Naproxin, but I already feel it affecting my brain.

If I clearly can’t take pharmaceuticals and marijuana, what hope is there in using CBD?

WTF – do I need herbs and fairy dust to aid me?!”

“My fingers are finding ways to grip again in order to twist off a sealed bottle cap.”

“If this fragmented existence is all that I can access, then I better figure out how to design new benefits.”

“I’ve been using a machine before my workouts that helped to relax my spine, thereby giving me a sense of being able to work from the core outward.

But I am noticing today that having not done that machine first, my walking gait is better at the end if this day.”

“I’ve been cautious about working on my abdomen, having its distension and internal bulgings and dispacements from the impact.

It’s been frightening to be in a state of blasted torsion after taking on forces greater than the human body is designed for.”

“Every day, I awaken to another version of overwhelm, and ask myself why.

Because at this point in my life, I should be capitalizing on all prior years’ struggles into now’s triumphant progress.

But spinal injury doesn’t give a fu**.”

“As I attempt to strengthen weak zones around my shoulder and hip joints, this is increasing imbalanced pully tension on my  destabilized neck and spine misalignments, causing a new type of numbness in a coursing line in segments of my face, hand, and foot muscles.

“The medical specialist told me that if I had any new symptoms that I should get back to him.

What – like the new dividing, tingling numbness between philanges in my foot that indicate that the lower spine injury you’ve been asserting is not as severe is actually as bad as I’ve been saying?!”

“I am beginning to try adding a few more select machines to my workout routines with the focus of reactivating muscle attachment strength to regain secured joint pliability.

But the response is serious if I ‘get it wrong.’

For example, when in the past I tried quads and hams, the quad portion activated muscles pulling too hard on anterior hip joint tearing = no more quad machine.

Recently, I tried modifying the leg press, including calves, by focusing on smooth alignment stability transference through slow movement up and down.

But this resulted in too much pressure across my knees the next day, which I attempted to counter by adding hams to stabilize the pressure load all around the knees more evenly.

Now I know that if I use the leg press, I need to decrease how low I go and be sure to finish with hams to balance.

Similarly, I tried the free-floating arms pec machine to get at posterior upper rotator cuff weakness from that ttorn muscle deactivation, thinking a little pec activation following would balance.

But while targeting the pec zones to support was a good plan, the followup balancing activation needed for me is actually the bar pressing machine having shoulders pushing upward.”

“I can’t help but find it wryly laughable that I must meet the mark by end of May, when my body is still experiencing reinjury destabilization in striving to.

I’m only able to inconsistently meet a minimal portion of trying to reclaim once greater target cabilities.”

“The difficulty is that where things are stuck, they keep holding for a reason…and I am not sure yet what is safe to remobilize.”

“A thigh’s fear tries to tell me with courage that while it is the inner anterior joint surface that gave way, something along the lateral IT band took the hard hit, as well, which may still be affecting the torsion.”

Hard-shock, sudden bracing against impact caused shoulders, hips, knees, feet, spinal, and neck joint articulation zones to flange outward incorrectly and freeze like ripped scar tissue.

“Trying to untwist my thigh injury while on the boarder of falling asleep yielded a little bit at last due to PT exercising”

“Attempting erratic energy pulses trying to blast back open once-functional pathways.”

More physical therapy exercises that are applying!!!