Recognizing patterns
Even if self’s fractured
Trusting cohesiveness
Will find other avenues
Category: The Accident – As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named “Clyde” (Short For Collide) Because It’s Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense
Mass Attack
There must be exchanged benefit
For having taken on tons of force
(Title play with words)
Hey!
“My toes can grip again!”
I Got “Nuthin”
“My feet and legs are swelling – lol.”
But I Was Ok Before
“When the insurance company did their dirty trick of sending me to their “specialist” in order to discredit my validity, they tried and succeeded temporarily in strong-arming the lie that the accident injuries had been pre-existing.”
(Under The Milky Way – The Church)
The Meltdown
“I wasn’t upset about giving blood.
In fact, I thought I had my sh** together.
Until I didn’t – now struggling to recover.”
And Now…
“The other knee tears in a different direction – likely due to further accommodation.
I just can’t afford to worry or care anymore about latest injury update communications.
I am still going to go forward – even if I unravel and fall apart into a pile of bones, organs, and tissues.
“Feel your way” can just take on new definitions as a determined blob inching along life’s bumbling highway.”
Communities
Thank you for the help and support
Play nicer where hurt and hindered
As Suspected
“My feet have changed width from the impact’s compression.
I tried getting into my hiking boots – which now squeeze too tightly along edges.”
They’re Kidding, Right?
“An assumption when one is injured and expects to be believed by agencies is that one should give up and act crippled in order to validate severity.
But quite aware of what’s been taken from me unconsentually and that time is essential for capitalizing, I have from the beginning – and still intend to – pushed to overcome these quandries.”
P.L. – Remobilizing
“I knew my quads could not engage and that the hamstring tear was prevented in healing due to a fusion of lateral hip and thigh tissues preventing the hip joint from tracking correctly.
But now as I feel medial internal ankle sudden-shifting and upper lateral hams quiver-attempt engaging, was the knee stuck as an anchor, mooring tight to the dock everything?”
(Evoke – TWO LANES, Live Session)
P.L. – Use Vs. Disuse
“I should likely not be trying to stretch through this torn loosening to realign leg bones properly again after accident misalignment stickage – but I want to be able to walk normally someday, again!”
P.L. – Dang It!
“Today’s my one day to garden!”
(Internally eyes the swelling issue, chiding it in rebellion to stay endurant)
P. L. Cont.
“Now the back of my knee is clicking and pain throbs through the joint.
This is all good progress – right?!”
(Screeching internally, hysterically)
Patellar Ligament
“Well…the right one is torn – as evidenced by shearing pain if I try any form of deep bend.
But I think it was stuck in the wrong position since the accident.”
My Life & Me
Predator Vision
(Lovely Day – Bill Withers)
Taking Damage
“Something just tore painfully in my knee, and tomorrow I take the wolf to a 2nd opinion vet.”
Innervating
There is this crazy red mottling
Covering my entire quadraceps
I hope this is good news
Meaning next recovering
Self-Correcting
How do I get my spinal chord to
Stop its inflammation-swelling?
It’s as if by its doing so it
Hopes to undo impinging
(Title of multiple applications)
Pure Honesty
I absolutely love my work, but
I’m dealing with spinal injuries
Muscle Tov
Migraine torsions as reward for work well done.
(Play on ” Mazel tov” congratulations!)
Pain = Gain
“A fu**ed equation.”
Response
“Although I weigh more now, I think some of the puffyness is subsiding – almost 2 years later.”
To Not Move (Song)
Snug in the perfect position
Almost all gone by omission
There used to be a time when
Many could be choosen from
Now nearly every one presents
Pain from an unrelenting thumb
After lovemaking the body resets
But haven’t found that partner yet
Drugs and alcohol are out of the question
Don’t need addiction adding complexion
Tossing and turning
Whining and burning
Screamimg and yelling
Are just mental blurring
Ain’t got no cure
For what’s ailing
System hijacked
By hot inflaming
Internal Dichotomy
When others do not respect requested boundaries to the self’s detriment.
(Yes, something has happened)
Tacking
Leaving the clinic
Due to worsening
Injury symptoms to
Design a better plan
Dancin’ Fool
“All of this core restabilizing alignment work has me here and there momentarily able to put out some sharp moves.
Of course, then I tweak something coming across limitations – but at least, then I have a funnn reason for being in severe, throbbing pain!”
(“Let me see you do it!” – Lil Jon)
Dog Paddling
“In the struggle to just keep showing up and maintain consistency, prospective advances are left by the wayside.”
(Indigo – Sam Barber ft. Avery Anna)
Clipped Wings
I can only do
Short flights &
Gentle landings
(Waiting On The World – Bob Moses)
Whiplash
“My struts are screaming
I don’t know what I did or
If it’s from increased load
But I must say this means
That I am getting better
Otherwise – I’m fu**ed.”
Imaging
“Re-scans for neck and spine since that backwards fall over and into the open suitcase – and now the other hip – are now ready to be performed.
At this point, though, do I really want to know?
This experience since the accident has carried too deep themes of humiliation and intimidation.
Having to advocate for myself while injured, yet doing all that I can to mask as ‘normal,’ creates an internal dichotomy.
Am I injured, or am I well?
Every moment is a type of phasing between realms, stuck in between and pulled waywardly-twisting over crucial pivot points – painfully, if not vigilantly careful.”
Lag Time
“It has been highly vexing how stuck I have felt – prevented from moving forward on projects.
Yet suddenly, projects are at last completing, and I am beginning to feel a bit set free from the mire!”
(Schism – TOOL)
Repost – when it’s good, it’s good.
Momentum
“Becomes key is generating propulsion progress with any masking for perceived smoothness.
‘Gee – she’s got a peppy step!'”
Grace & Coordination
“It’s like every move is a dance coordinating and transferring energy of movement along fine line barely functional tracks passing between muscles willing and able to briefly take the load – but these groups are always shifting.
Who needs external distractions, when there’s a whole internal world to manage and govern?”
I’M FIIIINNEE!!!
“So far, torn disc and torn joints with neurological cascade causing muscles to turn on and off and a foot intermittently collapsing.
I think they call this ‘Progress'”
A New Numb
“There is a new spot of numbness…mri’s again, soon.”
(Parody on “a new norm”)
Morph
“No matter how I grapple with it, it is disconcerting to see my body differently shaped now since the accident.
This is not age progression.
I guess bracing through limbs to take on tons of accelerated force can cause one to bulk up around joints and throughout fascia in response!”
Shame
“It makes no sense that I should feel ‘less than’ because I am struggling to regain traction after injuries.”
Giving
“It sucks when the reward is pain.”
Loosey-Goosey
“Increasing client load is degrading structure while attempting to embody capability.”
Getting Back Into Alignment
“Attempting to heal these injuries has been difficult due to loosened, twisted, and adhesed connections.
My best hope for recovery seems to be time, unraveling locked down torque ateas, and remobilizing.”
Like A Stick Shift
“I keep trying to get my hip to unstick.”
Pain’s Haze
“What would it be like to feel good?”
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