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The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense, Where Demons Tread

Arbitrary Arbitration

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There is a fine line to walk here.

If I obtain a lawyer, my insurance company will no longer be allowed to speak with and/or assist me in the process.

I am not surprised at the timing of all of this, though. Especially as it is poised to disrupt me on the verge of succeeding in retraining.

“At fault” coverage is dwindling, so my insurance wants to cut further payouts before they can no longer recoup this funding.

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3rd Party Bias

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Of course, the actual facts of the matter did not pursuade the doctor to change her position.

To do so would be to admit her error, and to acknowledge error would damage the 3rd party’s reputation for dislodging insurance recipients from their valid claims.

I wonder what the actual percentages are for the 3rd party ruling in claimants’ favor.

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The Ugly Truth

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I dreamed some friends set up time and place, and next thing I knew three clients were lined up, happily anticipaing to see me.

However, the most that I could do to get ready was some light and careful straightening up – and then I realized, “wait a minute.”

Despite the discomfort and embarrassment, I had to tell each one that there had been a mistake and that my friends should not have called them.

No matter how much I long to help, no matter how much I want my capabilities restored, and no matter how much I need the money, I just can’t help people in this way for now, anymore.

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The Big Gamble

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With insurance having unlawfully cut off my partial wage loss support and resulting pressures attempting to shove me back into the workforce prematurely, I have to decide if I allow this landslide to carry me where it will – or do I leap again with whatever skills I can muster to reach for a life less orfinary?

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Externalities

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Functioning in each moment requires more multiple efforts to just perform one task smoothly and effectively, creating an overage of conscripting more broadly further related processing capabilites to support and enact such operationd, which compounds complexity in what “should be” simplicity.

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Fretting

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I am as of yet uncertain how to recover effectively from these spinal injuries.

There are some core connections rebridging, and both ham string tears are getting better.

But the upper lumbar spine is still twist-center-punch-pinched-unsteady-dangerous, while the mass of cervical damage with variable-shifting nerve compressioning is still mostly unapproachable.

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Are You Kidding Me?!

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I had, of course, worried that the 3rd party doctor would claim some biased reason to discount my current inability to work – especially since she refused to perform the neurological assessment duties that I, my main doctor, and even my insurance company had requested and thought she was going to do.

But no.

Her eyes had glazed over during my interview and she seemed distracted and agitated when I told her my after-car accident current symptoms that I have been working diligently to have identified and  strategies of rehabilitation formulated.

She was not interested and responded lacklusterly, telling me vaguely that she was not allowed to assess me for these things.

Then, her eyes lit up alive and she became animated when I told her of the many physical traumas that I have had since childhood and outgrew and overcame.

I stated these honestly because I was required to, and proudly because these have been previous “wars that I have won” and was very functional afterwards despite of.

After performing a brief exam that any walk- in clinic would offer after first shrugging her shoulders and indicating by body language and slight comment that it was useless and wouldn’t matter, her 16 page I-am-sure-templated-report did not dispute that I could not currently work – but that the accident was not the cause of my current inabilities!

What-what-what?! the warbling dodo bird comedian sqwuaks at this ridiculous claim in the face of all actual evidence that has been given.

The cascade of allowed and unchecked resultant destabilizing force from this claim has put all of my rallying defences under the gun.

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Have A Care

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The identity of cause is not yet shown in the few scans so far taken.

They have merely shown proof that what I say has occurred is indeed in those dimensions.

For the body obtains injury not only to bones and muscles – but to nerves, organs, and interstitial vessels.

Fie to those in power that continue suppressing the truth’s humanitarian efforts!

The Accident - As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named "Clyde" (Short For Collide) Because It's Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense, Where Demons Tread

3rd Party Arbitrary

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As I thought would happen, the 3rd party doctor who was not listening to my current symptoms and was looking for any reason to discount what I was saying filed against my continuing to receive support. She was even reluctant to do a physical assessment, shrugging and saying “well, let’s go through the motions” – and then not even following through with any real testing!

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Emotional Release

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When I felt crushed after the 3rd party doctor exam to “verify my continued disability,” I found a secluded office alcove where a chair sat in diffused, bright sunlight.

I had to let myself just stop and shake out the sensations and their implications, holding my forehead between fingertips with arms supported by high-sided leather.

As tears rolled down my cheeks unbidden, frustrated by event’s embarrassment, I quietly sobbed folding into myself as my brain swirled in churning confusion.

Then anger arose to defend me, to lift and surround encircling: the dragin within awaking to protect this vulnerable child.

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The Concept Of Suing

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“Why would I wish to ruin another person’s life because they have “ruined” mine?

This grabbing at each other in ‘taking’ for restoration/compensation repositioning is not a real state of justice – nor restitution.

Accounting for ‘loss’ by causing more loss energetically propagates loss in the system.”

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Affection Reception

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“Due to pain and muscle overstim with lockdown, can I even feel pleasure of physical connection anymore?

In stating this, two cats and a dog come up to greet me and be petted while purring, rubbing against, and leaning into me.

Maybe part of the issue is that I’m moving too fast to soak in time with those who love me.

I am also having to manage too much performance pressure.”