Category: The Accident – As Of 10/10/25 Early AM Named “Clyde” (Short For Collide) Because It’s Funny And I Deserve Mirth At Its Expense
Hard Stop
“But I can’t move in any of these ways, anymore.”
Lament
Oh that we could have met
When I had more to offer…
Questions In The Dark
How could she let him help her
Why would he even want to?
Her heart had been betrayed
And her body was fractured
Time Of Need
“This is mine…
But my spirit rocks unconsoled, knowing tbat even still, things could get worse.
Traction seems a thing of fantasy now, and daydreams.”
Cracks In The Shell
“Lovely forms are reclaimed of broken pottery, made whole again by golden filagree.
Heal me with your love, so that I may be reborn.”
In-Ferno
“Where am I?”she screamed while he tried to grab onto and hold her as she fought him off in desperation to reclaim herself, not knowing what was needed.
“Can you see me through all of this rage and pain? Would you love me still if I can never be myself, again?”
(Hanging On – Bob Moses, CRi Remix)
Throes Of Poverty
“Stumbling over bills’ downhill slides while attempting to innovate.”
Oh Boy!
“I get to use my ‘placard of priviledge.'”
Dear Alex,
“I’m worried that my synaptic gaps won’t bridge and heal.
What can I do about this?
I feel locked in an isolated room…
And at times when I can successfully pick the lock, I then find myself lost in dark and misty corridors.”
Fu** Addiction
“Freedom is priceless.”
Ensnared
The pain was worse than ever before – and she realized that the medication she refused to continue taking had sunk its hooks into her after only two separate day’s doses.
A Bone To Pick
“Must be picked when needing picking.”
Without Duress
“What is a life like?
Distant brief memories taunt as haunt.”
Struggle
“‘Brings down the walls of pride,’ state lyrics from a religious song.
‘Middle fingers in the air,’ if that’s the type of god we must endure – giving me more and more crisis to bear (all of us, for that matter).
No ‘free will’ kept promises, here – just mixed-messaging lashes and unconsentual bondage.”
(Dark Signs – Sleep Token)
Basic Need
“And I hate what I’ve become, every time I wake up.”
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(Sleep Token lyrics)
Dems Da Breaks
“I don’t really see how it’s functionally possible for me to ‘be with’ anybody.
I’m struggling around so many factors.
Ahhh-hahaaaaa…”
Ship On Fire
Even though her ship was taking on water
She knew it would hold if she managed it
Long enough to get the others to safety
Yet even though she knew their plight
Having survived her own as parent
It still hurt she’d be left stranded
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(Paragraph lools like the prow of a ship :D)
I’ve Said This Before
“Once again, construction site low, high intensity rumbles are taking place next to my home with rarity in stopping as tractors plow and reshape the landscape.
Last year is was one lot, and now another.
The waves hit harder through the body.”
You Know…
“I don’t like needing to ride in the wheel chair through the vast hospital halls, but it is kind of fun to be wooshed along.
Though it’s best if I have my sunglasses on so that other people can’t see that I’ve been crying.”
Medication
“As good as this one diverts the pain, it makes my tissues swollen.
I’m looking for a cure – not more alterations.”
Body Image
“I greatly dislike that effects of the injuries have firmly deposited me into middle-aged image classifications – as if I’ve been a dumpy, inattentive non-participant in my life.
My many efforts are barely reflected.”
Wow – Results!
“I flexed into my ribs for back, front, and sides all around with a softened smaller basket ball like we used to play ‘fodge’ to.
I lay upon it in yoga, stretch, etc., positions, gently rocking into it while attempting to correct the enforced upper stomach bulging still clamped from the accident.
I guess enough time since the accident has brought some settling in my system, allowing my efforts to at last bring results.
Because even though I can feel the torsion spasming trying to come back, I am able to briefly pull those upper ab muscles inward again!”
New Findings
“As I work with a mini foam roller, it becomes apparent that there are other regions of my spine that are not just referred pain zones that doctors keep claiming, despite symptoms that I have explained to them.”
Dear Alex,
“I am discouraged, though, that numbness is spreading and becoming more prevalent down my arms.
Maybe it’s because of the increased pushing to survive that I’ve been doing.
Stopping my work did not bring more rest.
Rather, I’ve been launched into more intensity struggles against the injuries.”
Dear Alex,
“I tried a new anti-inflammatory yesterday, and despite its tranking my brain, it actually interrupted the throbbing pain in my spine!
But I am not sure that I should rely on it – become dependent.
And the haggard lines on my face today…are they from the med messing with me?
Or is this what’s hiding underneath the facade of endurance, and relief from the med allows this to come through?”
A Moment’s Breath
On the elliptical
A moment sane
Inside core happy
Caught up to self
Two weeks of dry
Almost lost more
But a beloved gifted
P drink & saved gym
Both helping to
Regulate stress
In this gambit to
Remain housed
Fun
“Waiting in the food bank line.”
The Final Countdown
“Deadlines for obtaining stability retention supports are this Friday.
Oohhhhhhhh!”
(See song)
High Hopes (As In, Am I?)
“It is my hope that as I continue to work out, my tissues will realign and regain their fascial tensility.
I think this as I throw a pillow sheet into the hamper at distance – and feel my left pec flex, which was not throwing, rather than the right one, which was.
What is going on in my muscular systems?”
Dear Alex,
“I hate what pain does to me.”
(Jaws – Sleep Token)
Pain’s Rage
“Of course when the vise is twisting, I want to go after who did this to me.”
Hell
Nerve-compression migraine
Lack Of Buffers
“I value autonomy in that it keeps people out of my business and retains dignity.
Having to explain and prove my circumstances to qualify for assistance increases the feeling of vulnerability.
I know that connection could expand feeling part of community.
I just prefer participating on more equal terms.”
Networking
Switching modalities and focus
What triumph can I pull together?
(Memory – Alex LeMirage)
Neurofeedback
“I had my first session today, desperate to move my body into any sort of positive healing.”
Captain’s Creed
“If I my ship is going down, I must make sure that the others can make it to safety.”
Is That The Plan?
“Throwing myself at options until something sticks?”
I Try To Tell Myself
It’s ok…it was all a gamble
Got me this far as shamble
Bread Winner
“That used to be me – by ingenuity.”
HyperVigilance
That which I’ve reclaimed
Over and over and over is
Held by the refusal
To let myself forget
“Head Trauma”
Lapse Of Reason
Any success seems momentary
As expends and then falls apart
(Title of multiple meanings)
Behind The Curve
“How can one catch up if the marker keeps moving ahead?”
Closed Loop System
“Dead ends all around.”
Responsibilty
“No one is responsible for me – except maybe the person who hit me and caused these disabilities.
But frankly, I just want the cures with healing and return of my capabilities.
Can I have this, please?”
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