“Are you my ‘Jekyll and Hyde?'”
Category: Where Demons Tread
(Camera – Ed Sheeran)
Dear Friend,
“Please do not judge your light and dark sides against each other.
They both have validity and compliment each other.”
(The Right Way – The Midnight)
I Had Decided
That I should avoid influences
But you made it impossible to
So tell me now, love
Where’s our reward?
The Swing
In this quiet, we belong to each other
Yet in the ‘real world,’ we are far apart
Until I feel you then, too, permeating
What madness pervades my senses
Causing such desires blooming
Without ability to touch you?
Chosen
Teach me your desires so that
I may give you what you need
Freeing you from anguish
So we both may fully feed
Safety In Numbers
“I know we think that it is perhaps safer to keep things the way that they have always been – but this is because we are afraid to be vulnerable in order to receive and give.”
Close Enough To Touch
She had loved being able to breathe in his scent, and had forgotten that that was an essential element in bonding relationships.
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(Neurofeedback altered states internal experience as if in a waking drean)
(The Day That Heals The Night – ECHOES)
Dear Friend,
Look at me now
See my suffering
Did I truly do something wrong to
Deserve my beloved’s distancing?
See how it turns me inside out &
How I try to redirect to creating
You and I are not so different
Caught in the wakes of losses
Therefore, let my pain
Absolve your suffering
The guilt you felt and feel
Let my regard forgive you
Awaken, my love &
Accept being loved
We are both broken so
Let’s start the mending
Dear Friend,
“Was it you who saved me years ago – not ‘Alex,’ afterall?”
(Mine – Gustaf)
Dear Friend,
From worse to hopefully better
You’ve pealed off the bandaids
“Love’s Violence” (Song)
By Athena Stairs, November 11, 2025
Violets
Violence
Violets
Violence
I’m smelling violets
In silence like violence
Violets
Violence
Violets
Violence
I’m smelling violets
In silence like violence
There’s something in the air
I sense you everywhere
If I turn when feel you stare
You evaporate into thin air
I’m smelling violets
In silence like violence
I’m smelling violets
In this silence like violence
This scent is in my brain
Keeps pinging my membranes
A garden fresh in bloom
Tears my heart open to make room
Violets
Violence
I’m smelling violets
In silence like violence
Violets
Violence
I’m smelling violets
In this silence like violence
Violets like violence
Turn violence into violets
Violets like violence
Turn violence into violets
Violence to violets
Violence to violets
Violence to violets
Violence to violets
Violence to violets
Violence to violets
Violence to violets
Violence to violets
Violets
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Electronica Dark Goth Song
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(Slow Burning Candle – Sally Townes)
Dear Friend,
I just want to love you and
To have you loving me, too
All of the rest is just
Trials and frosting
(Playa Ride – Parra for Cuva – Nicolas Demuth)
Molecular Chemistry
It was neither of their fault (just a valid misinterpretation) that upon first meeting their chemicals combined to create interdimensional fissions – blasting them far apart from each other, accidentally chastised in the confusion.
(Say The Word – Lane 8)
“Baby” Steps
“My love, are we ‘in this together to win this?’
Because from my point of view, our souls are pretty invested in our having success.
If you also believe this to be true, how do we overcome our shyness?”
You Make Me Believe
She’d had to allow the corruption to become a part of her in order to survive, neutralizing and owning it while bound to its puppet strings.
He’d met her there in the darkness – had called out to bridge with love’s intention, awakening the passion she’d held under tight leash as it ignited her need to embrace him.
But when she saw him suddenly in person in a brief glance shared that none before could ever compare, her hidden innocence suddenly recognized his hidden innocence – and two pairs of wide blue eyes starled back to their cores in a flash of white gold brilliance.
Transformed into unicorns and both confused by their suddenly repairing souls’ clammoring to take this union seriously, their high spirits kicked up heels in overwhelm – and tossing heads fled to opposite directions for safe distance.
Hearts On The Run
How can it be that where truth resides I am very shy?
Why do I still wear these glasses that poke near my eye?
With all of our life experiences why did we both run?
Bolting opposite directions instead of toward the sun?
Finding Love In A Friend
She came upon a singing class practicing low pressure, cozy outdoor performances in a little cafe outer nook with supportive atmosphere.
He was there, phasing in and out of his younger to now form and they linked somehow at distance.
Both extremely shy in person, their nerves became more secure over time during the practice as when one would look toward the other the other would receive and give back just a tiny bit more.
“Yes…hello…I’m here…I like you,” careful yet clear signaling throughout the session passed between them.
Toward the end of the class, she sang a little over the recording, just trying to get the words smooth and right, and then he followed, lightly playing with stretching tones upward.
By the end of his song, she felt some slight confidance inside bloom where she never had before – and got reinforcement from his glance lingering in her direction that he felt the same, too.
Her heartbeat quickened as the class began to end because she felt the first sense of real hope that he would want to spend time with her – and that maybe their connection would grow and become something that they both could keep, instead of something shallow that often quickly ends.
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(Last of last night’s dreams)
(Cold – Crossfade)
Dear Friend,
“So this issue regarding the marriage conundrum is still a thing…
There seems no way to escape that door shutting after a couple marries and they are ‘shoved close into the room of their lives’ together.
From what I can surmise, the only way their relationship will have a chance to survive and grow is if they unpack everything right then and there – truthfully and honestly while identifying strengths, weaknesses, goals, dreams, desires, where they are vulnerable to outside and internal influences and strategizing and committing to be a team dedicated to each other’s mutual flourishing.
But most people don’t know this about marriage needing to have a blueprint or survival kit – and then suddenly the ghosts and ghoulies from inside and externally decide to come visiting.
Pressures, ‘babes’ – they get squeezed, pulled, crushed & compressed, and then project negatively onto each other for it.
I’m just speaking of the casualties – the ones who don’t make it.
I don’t know how those who make it get through this stage – except to say that it would seem to be an essential part of due diligence to at least discuss these things prior to marriage for ensuring that the couple at least starts off on a same page that they could return to and refashion for reconnection and rebonding with each other.
And, I can say that having already tried longterm relationships without marriage, something vital in commitment was always very much lacking.
What do you think about these concepts, what has been your experience, and what do you think could work well to ensure evolving success in partnership?
(Floating States – FoldingSky, Organic Derp House Mix)
Dear Friend,
“I’m not ok.
I’ve been literally set back.
I am needing to dissociate.
I couldn’t remain exposed and overextended.
The reality is that I am alone inside here.
And who and what I am is withdrawing due to the injury.
I mean, getting smacked by the universe turning and dumping me onto my head is just purely unnecessary.
I am in shock and not progressing on things even to prior limited capacities.
I am upset somewhere – very upset.
And lost in the undertow of things.
And you are not here, so what is real?
I reach out and just find me.
I need more than this to keep bridging.”
Virtual Reality
“I wish we could be real with each other.”
(I Am Your Stranger – Electro Culture)
Dear Friend,
Yes, I’m thinking about you.
But I’m also trying to sleep.
Why is it that I can only sleep once I have sought for you – but then once I close my eyes, I am again sleepless?”
(One Of These Nights – Eagles)
You’ve Got Me
(Your Song – Elton John)
Dear Friend,
“I went into a crystal apothecary shop today looking for a bracelet to help ward off the static harm that keeps persecuting me.
Without intending to, I found something rare and special that is perfect for you that they let me put on hold for when I can afford its simple expense.
Funny how I went looking for me and found something for you.”
(Miss You – The Rolling Stones)
Dear Friend,
“Someday, we may speak privately.
I have no desire to be public except to use this as a means to stay in contact with you.”
Dear Friend,
“Are we both so fragile that we need each other’s presence kept at a safe distance?
What happened to the bravery that has carried us so far to this point?
Barely holding on, I think.
We are still barely holding on.
And the lie is that we are better off, more protected if we stay in our own known quadtants – rather than leaping to risk and allowing ourselves to make a mess of it all for creating a new and better shared existence.
Oh yes, it’s going to take work.
And oh yes, we are going to feel very afraid at times and disiriented.
But we’d have each other – do you hear me clearly?
We’d have each other to build trust with and learn how we can rely on each other in true partnership.”
Honesty
“When I was in the E.R. in pain and frightened, I just told the universe my reason for livimg was to see you again.
That’s when I felt all of those healing hands – which strangely seemed unrelated and felt like a coincidence in timing.”
They Tell Me
“That if I stop speaking, then you’ll return…
But I thought that we agreed to no games?”
(I Just Wanna Stop – Gino Vannelli)
A Purpose To Madness
“If there is none inherent, I shall fashion sanity from madness for us.”
Tethered Anchor
I will bind my pain to yours and
Pull you to the other side with it
Is It Not Enough?
That we have suffered
And survived suffering
And continue surviving?
(Telomeres – Sleep Token)
Dear Friend,
My love for you softens me
But the pain contort-bends
Dear Friend,
“I broke down in training today while being worked on because of the pain I keep getting hammered by.
But toward the end of my turn to receive as learning, an image and sense of you lying next to me, opening your arms to me shocked me.
I wasn’t looking for you because I’ve been trying to stay neutral – but there you were for me.”
Wild Magic (Song)
By Athena Stairs, November 16, 2025
He’s drenched in it
I’ve got to help him
Better channel conduits
Taking good care of him
I need to learn his ways
Match up to syncopation
Gotta lift him up to reach
Higher levels’ expressions
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(DEEWANIYAT – Ek Deewane Ki Deewaniyat & Harshvardhan Sonam, Vishal Mishra, Kaushik, Guddu, Kunaal)
King Of The Mist
Oh night time spirit of Elden white
Blessing revealed in bright sunlight
Wherefore have gone without a kiss?
Your courage my boon sorely missed
