“The pressure to perform was ever present, yet because I pushed, this further injured.
Now my internal messaging is being messed with.
Yay.”
“The pressure to perform was ever present, yet because I pushed, this further injured.
Now my internal messaging is being messed with.
Yay.”
“They were there, but I couldn’t reach them.”
“I thought that losses would be temporary.
But sense of security has been fleeting.”
“An effect of the ‘freeze’ pattern.”
“I don’t know what I can do this time.
Even if I get surgery, I am lacking spinal stability.
Maybe I can get lucky with new PT, build up – and then disrupt it again.
But there is so much to unpack in these regions…”
What could we become if
We stopped the treadmill?
“To catch up to myself.”
“Are we reaching to pull each other through?”
Prime directive switches modes
Depending upon focus selected
Calibrating survival maps
To match accessible data
By Athena Stairs, September 3, 2025
Hey now
What are you doing
Over there?
I see you thinking human thoughts
Is that
Easy
To do?
Calibrating…
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“You what, ‘mate?'”
Is not only hoping for miracles
But is out here taking damage
While trying to create dreams
And crying as they fall ravaged
*What am I doing?
Scrambling for survival, per usual.”
“When leaders becomes injured, they must let others help carry the load.”
“Changing methods of leading, reinovating”
“Remember that fear is something we might feel – before we break through.”
—
(A valued peer’s encouragement)
“Resource specialist kicking the can down new roads of unknown possibility…it’s looking like there’s nothing ahead, but there must be.”