“The sun is out for a moment, basking my left shoulder, neck, and face with its healing rays – penetrating to wounds with its forgiveness.”
Category: Altered States
On The Road Again
“At least I have a chance to make it home – if I can stay ahead of the pain.
Not sure about school this week, though.”
Honesty
“When I was in the E.R. in pain and frightened, I just told the universe my reason for livimg was to see you again.
That’s when I felt all of those healing hands – which strangely seemed unrelated and felt like a coincidence in timing.”
Momentary Reprieve
“I beat back upon the pain last night to early morning hours from so many angles, and ot finally backed off so I could sleep around 4 or 5am.
The head impact compression distributed into flanged and twisted head and neck bone attachments down into right shoulder deep imbedment, as well as brain swelling inflammation was hard to counteract without ice or medication.
OMG – everything was swollen and not happy!”
Tethered Anchor
I will bind my pain to yours and
Pull you to the other side with it
Is It Not Enough?
That we have suffered
And survived suffering
And continue surviving?
(Telomeres – Sleep Token)
Dear Friend,
My love for you softens me
But the pain contort-bends
The Core Of Pain
Is full of molten screaming
No mortal may survive in it
Proving therefore of divinity
I Think That
“I just cannot handle additional levels of pain to the load that I’ve already been carrying..”
Injury
“My mind keeps saying that I’m dying…”
Dear Alex,
“The concussion and thoracic pain hurts so bad that my eyes are literally twitching.
Now I need a new fecking category.”
(NEVER GOING BACK – nobigdyl, Kato On The Track, Project Pat, Anthony “MIXEDBYAC” Carballo)
(Before We Drown – Depeche Mode)
Some Great Reward
She had not thought of the consequences to herself for bracing against the incoming car’s impact – only that she was in a split second outraged and defiant in her refusal to let the man’s short-sightedness use her and her vehicle as inadvertent means to harm anyone around her.
—
(Title is also the name of a Depeche Mode album)
(Still Alive – Over The Gun, From Viddo Game “Portal”)
Two. Hours. Later…
“Still alive – and back to retraining…’knock on wood.'”
Back To What I Do
“Something about survival -?”
And Then,
“My crystal necklace that has been missing for awhile suddenly pops out of the suitcase when I pull out a leather bag that I had thought was empty!”
Halt This Eclipse, Baby
(Show Me – Caseet)
Of What Benefut?
“Slippery floor and hospital visit…
I should have gone to that concert instead of trying to rest and recover -?”
Another Night
“Little sleep, but unlike the homeless also at the hospital for help, I have showered and can still mask my own ‘insanity.'”
Needed Soothing (Telomeres – Sleep Token)
Healing Hands
“They must have worked -!
A higher ranking rare and bizarre experience than I have ever had before.
Thank you for your blessings, oh ‘ghosts’ of the ER!”
(I Feel Alive – Vibfy)
Pain
“Confirmation of life.”
(Can I have some joy and pleasure, please?)
Prognosis
“I shall live.”
(When Your Falling – Peter Gabriel
I Has
Headphones
Repeat
Fall…
Get back up…
“General Hospital”
“My life is offici!lly a soap opera.”
Hallucinations
“Suddenly feelimg pressure from many hands on my legs and hovering over me as if checking and reading me while crowding once the nurses left was freaking me out, cascading shock reaction until I took off the neck collar and relieved tension pressure from too much traction on my brain.
Weee…never had that happen before.
And here comes more pain.”
Yeah, ICU
“I get a new tour.”
(Under Pressure – Queen, David Bowie & Annie Lennox)
Youth’s Exploitation
“We are told that our value decreases as our age increases – but that is because ‘elders’ cannot be so easily manipulated.”
StarLight
“The pressures of the years rapidly increasing from the accident’s fallout have produced pronounced silver strands to either side of my cheek bones – which I always thought would be cool, but the Crone is definitely getting to drink her fill.”
(Sinking to Atlantis – KOREmickey & Kung Fu Kenny)
Dear Friend,
“Where is the room for courtship and romance?
Is it enough of a start to have spoken our shared truths at distance?
I wore a mask today to protect my fellow healer students.
But doing so overheated my brain and recycled whatever I was fighting off so now I feel feverish.
So if, for example, we were to meet this evening, my instincts would be to turn you away to protect you.
Or…
The only other option would be to invite you in where we would instantly (hopefully) succumb to sleep together – and I would likely infect you.
Are we allowed to just cross that line and fall into natural rhythms together?
Why do I feel like I’ve always known you – as though we are tethered?”
No “Go”
Activities & shows – but going back to bed.
We Weren’t Ready
“But what makes us ready?
Surely – do not say that it’s more time!”
My Between Realms Ring
“It broke today after having been significantly snagged days ago.
Did it abdicate to save my digit from further harm?”
(Ha Lo’ · Black Soil)
Outer Realms
Quivering
I’m shaking
Am I sick or
Nervousness
Compounds
In the waking?
—
(Content of multiple meanings)
Mortification
Hard-hitting anxiety
From extension that
Lacking reciprocation
Cascades in retraction
Bedazzled
Quiet – they say to keep quiet
For if request he will not come
The light cast bright reveals someone
As if they really knew what to look for
So many are waiting for that knock on their door
And my nerves keep aching fried and frazzled
(Ever Know – HAEVN)
Saving Me
“It becomes ever further apparent that my creations here keep me from dissolving completely.”
(TMBTE – Sleep Token)
Normalcy
“Is that like Vitamin C?
Can I buy it as a supplement?”
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